How is Your Heart?

I was just wondering. How is your heart? Is it focused on the world and what it can give you in relationships (temporary fun, hurt, and sadness) or are you focused on Jesus and simply waiting at His feet...and falling in love with Him. "Now Tiffany," You may say, "I'm an eligible single person and I'm lonely." Have you ever thought about how Jesus was single and alone. But yet He was not alone.. He had God. I know a lot of us are called to be married. But that's not the greatest calling of our life. The greatest calling of your life is to fall in love with Jesus. Here lately I have needed Him more and more. I have discovered that He is the greatest Prince I could ever have. He is there in my pain and truly knows how to comfort and heal me. I know that there is a great guy God has for me. But I am not in hurry to meet Him. I am not going to be like Martha and be bustling around trying to see what kind of single preacher guy I can get. I am going to wait at Jesus' feet like Mary did. You know what Jesus told Mary that she had chosen the greater part and it would not be taken away from her. I have expierenced lonliness and I still do. Especially when I am around all the married and dating people at my church and when I see all the love going on on Facebook. I have learned to say "Jesus you come fill my lonliness and you have a plan and I trust in You." Now I realize not everybody is going to kiss dating goodbye. But PLEASE take careful time in what you do. Seek God and see what He has for you. I know I thought I would have met the one by now and be planning my wedding. But instead God is leading me to bible college close to 850 miles from my home, friends, and family. I don't understand His ways but they are higher than mine. I'm going to close with these thoughts my friend put on FB.. "Are you putting your relationship on hold for God, or are you putting God on hold for your relationship."

Well that's Odd...

Well it's Wedensday and I have taken all my 9 weeks exams except for one and that is Web Page. I'm excited that Friday is just around the corner and then it will be SPRING BREAK!!! So excited!!

Last night I was talking to one of my guy friends on Facebook. We use to go to middle school together but after the 9th grade he moved to a different school. So we were just talking about Prom and he was saying he didn't want to take anyone from the school he goes to. I was like "Aren't you going to take your girlfriend?" (His profile pic had been of him and this girl..so I assumed that it was his girl) "No I don't have one" then came the question...."Do you have a boyfriend?" I replied "No I don't, I'm not into dating right now." "Why? You could meet guys." My Reply went something like this "Yea I could, but I don't want to, I am waiting for the one God has for me." He says "How will you know if he is the one." (my guyfriend is not a Christian) so I explained that God would give us wisdom that we would just know and that God gave me a joy that no guy could ever give me. His reply..."Well, that's odd."

I wasn't expecting that kind of reply..LOL But the Bible does say we are a peculiar people.

My Answer is No

I told Thad ( the one who asked me to prom) No. I felt pressured for an answer and I started to feel uncomfortable especially when he asked me to go to the movies with him last weekend. I had to do a lot of thinking and the Lord brought that verse to mind "Do not be unequally yoked" Even if I had just went to see a movie with him I would be letting down my guard and I would be allowing a foothold for the enemy. I would also be letting down my brothers and sisters on my No Dating, Just Waiting group. I am still super excited about prom even though I'll probaly going alone like most of my best friends. I could ask my cousin Matthew. I went as his prom date last year. It was really fun too. The Lord will be strenght, He is the one who gave me strength to say No. Thank you my dear, Sweet Jesus. :)

Love: True Love

So wow..its really DECEMBER!!! Is it already time for Christmas? lol What a random way to start a blog post..oh well. So the other day I bought "I Kissed Dating Goodbye". Omw it is one of the most awesome books about purity and waiting and pursing that intimate oneness with Jesus. I wish I hadn't spent so much time pitying myself over being so single and mulling over it. But I can make a change. Well Jesus will make the change. I just have to surrender myself, my whole self. Not just a thought or minute or hour. But my whole heart, my whole mind, my whole soul, my whole being. In "I Kissed Dating Goodbye" Josh Harris talks about how we have this picture of romance in our heads, kissing and falling into each other's arms. And then God says look at this picture of love and its His son hanging on a cross. God has really been talking to my heart through these books and especially His Word. Jesus was true love. I told the Lord the other day that I was so thankful for His mercy on this stubborn thickheaded girl. Jesus is so WONDERFUL GOOD!! :) I know I haven't reached even close to the middle where I need to be. But Jesus shall guide me. He is patient and kind. Our picture of Love is so degrading and worthless compared to His love. We are so selfish and always wanting "What is in it for Me?" of " I gotta get all I can get!" But you know what instead of being selfish for this flesh and trying to find fullfillment everywhere. We should pursue Jesus!!! He won't reject us! He will return his love back. More love than we could ever imagine. We also have to keep in mind that Love is not just butterfly heady feeling but all what it says in 1 Corinthians 13!

Wow I've written a lot. It was just something flowing out of my heart I had to to get out! :)

Looking Up to Jesus

Hmm...how should I start this....I don't want to sound like I am desperate to have a boyfriend. Even thought sometimes my heart desperatly cries "When God? When?" But the Spirit inside of me is like "Set your affection on things above." Look to Jesus..let him be your wholeness in this lonliness. Oh it is so hard sometimes! You look around and you see other couples. I always have to remind myself "Your day is coming Tiffany!" I know God is trying to teach me patience and to get my heart totally focused on Him. I know I have a work to do for him. But this flesh wants to focus on the things at hand. That is all the flesh can see. But the spirit sees the things that are eternal and life everlasting! For we walk by faith and not by sight. We should ask for blinders on our eyes. So we won't look to the left and to the right, but straight at Him! I know my Man is coming. Right now though I have to look to Jesus. He is the only one who can satisfy the deepest longing and desire in the heart!