The Treasure Just in Reach

I know it is hard for all of us at times on this path God has chosen.. At times you feel like that you could give up. The world seems to offer you better things.. But you know deep within your heart those things are only temporary. Last week my Co-Pastor read something to me that "stuck in my crawl" so to speak. I will tell it to the best of my memory. (True story) This man was in his early thirties and I can't remember exactly how he ended up in the hospital. But he died.. He saw himself on the table as he went up. He found himself surrounded by all these rooms. An angel came to him and started showing him the rooms. They were filled with diamonds and all sorts of precious jewels. The man asked the angel what all these were for. The angel told him that it was the treasure to be given to God's servants.. but they gave up right before they were to recieve it.

I have to say that it really struck a chord in my heart. Yes, waiting on what step to take in life next is hard. Yes, waiting for God to give me a husband is hard. Yes, living without my precious mother is hard. But I have to remember God has a plan in all this. I will recieve the promises He has promised. I can not give up so easily.. God's treasure is just in reach. I will trust Him. Because even though on my toughest of days.. I am a jewel in His crown. I will trust Him because He is worthy... He hasn't forgotten you dear Lady of God. He loves you and understands when nobody does. He knows the depth of your heart and the thoughts that you think. And yet He still chases you with reckless Love. Oh me, wow.. when I think about it.. It makes my heart want to burst with all sorts of emotions! Oh how He loves us...

Do You Trust Me?

The couple of past weeks the Lord keeps asking me "Do You Trust Me?" For example on Facebook I'll just be looking at friends and seeing who they are in a relationship with and everything seems to be fantastic and they are in love. Then I look on my life and I begin to be jealous and discontement rises. I have caught myself about to look at someone's profile just to see if they are still dating and the Lord gently asks me "Do You Trust Me?"

We are all human and we long for Love and Satisfaction. I remember reading in Passion & Purity about the way "bread" could not satisfy the heart like "manna" Bread is the dating/earthly love/earlthy pleasures and Manna is that heavenly bread Jesus. (My Definitions) I wish I could remember how Elisabeth Elliot explained it.

I am not saying that it was wrong for me to be checking to see how happy and content people were. But that I was losing focus on what God wanted for me. I would be asking myself "When am I going to fall in love? Where is the One God has for me?" My heart would start to feel impatient and lonely. But God is getting my heart and affections back where they need to be "For He satisfieth the longing heart, and filled the hungry soul with goodness"

Yesterday, I was sitting in my P.E. class thinking about the future and feeling out of control. The Lord brought Jeremiah 17:5-8 to my thoughts. It talks about how the man who doesn't trust the Lord he is like in a desert and the man who trusts in the Lord is like a tree planted in the waters. It really got me to thinking and it encouraged me greatly.

I hope this post makes sense... My thoughts kinda look jumbled together..Oh well :) God Bless Ya'll

Follow Your Heart

Wow..its already been 9 weeks into the school year! Thank the Lord it is my last year! Seniors Rock! Well anyways..so now its that dreadful business...WHAT TO DO AFTER HIGH SCHOOL!! I know the Lord is leading me toward mission work and I want to do whatever he wants me to do. I have considered some Bible Colleges, but after looking over them and seeking the Lord about it. I knew they were some definite nos. But then my parents and I started talking about this college called Mt. Zion School of Ministry. Its part of Bro. David Wilkerson's work. I have been praying about this place so much for the past month. It's a wonderful college. You are there to get deeper in God and to have a more intimate walk with Him. And whats so great is that they are in the Truth. Their standards and beliefs are so much like mine. My Momma was telling me last night "Follow your Heart." I've been thinking about it.."following my heart." I want my heart to be fully focused on Jesus. And that verse keeps coming to mind Trust in the Lord with ALL THINE HEART and lean not unto thine own understanding, In ALL THY WAYS acknowledge Him and He shall direct thy paths. So I was also thinking "Well its not always good to follow the heart, cause sometimes it wants stuff thats not pleasing to God or gets caught up in its own fleshly desires." But what was so amazing is that first part of that verse..Trust in the Lord with all thine heart! I have to remind myself at times that God has got this He is control. I am his child and he will lead and guide me into all truth!