Don't Care What Says What

I got the Internet back working on my phone. I just had to reboot it. It was kinda a relief to have it not working..oh well.

Today momma went to her first cat scan since she started Chemo. I don't care what that cat scan said!! I know God healed my momma's body! God comforted me this morning while I was sitting in Adv. Algebra ( I tend to not really pay attention, usually my mind is kinda somewhere else but there at the same time) Anyways. The devil starting warring my mind. I started quoting that scripture "Faith is the Substance of things hoped for, the EVIDENCE of things NOT seen" So I was thinking to myself "Amen!!" Then the next verse kinda hit me in away that I haven't fully realized.."For by it the Elders OBTAINED a GOOD report" I was like "OMW!!!" When I talked to mom this afternoon she had told me about the results. I told her that verse and she told me hers "calleth those things as such they where" ( I think that's how it goes) I don't care what that little machine said...that devil is a liar and GOD is the TRUTH!!

Tonight I got a phone call from a concerned family/church member. She was asking me about how Mom's thing went and I told her we were trusting in God. I didn't want to tell her without permission because people love a good story and they love to add their own things to it. So she was like I am here for you and then the next thing kinda suprised me. She was like "I know you Tiffany, I know you. You are like a hardball, it's ok to cry, you don't need to hold it all in." I was like "God is my comfort" and she said " I know but you don't need to hold it all in" After we hung up I had to laugh..yes laugh. I know she was just trying to help me and be there for me. I can't stand for people to say they know me, when they really don't. During this whole time since September '09 when we found out about Mom's daignosis God has been such a joy and comfort. I have never felt so much peace and joy in my entire life. At the beginning I did break down once. But that day
I gave my total trust to God. I don't need to weep and cry! I need to shout and dance! It's funny that me and mom have to comfort other people who cry about what a thing has happened to her and we are like "Its ok!" But God has just surrounded us with joy unspeakable and we have went on like nothing has ever happened. I guess people ( sad when it's church people too) expect you to sit in the dumps and be worried and tossed about. Anyways I just had to write my heart out a little! It reminds me of that verse in Isaiah 61:3- "the oil of joy for mourning" oh Hallelujah =D
~Tiffany's iPhone~

Some More Thoughts

I am sitting here in Web Page Design. I am bored and my phone won't pull up Facebook. Oh well I shall survive. Man I wish it wasn't so complicating as it was back in the day. Today's generation is so into technology (which can be a good thing) but some let it overtake their life. Maybe it's good it's my phone isn't working. I had it out during break and my friends were talking. I had a thought "I shouldn't neglect my friends here, I can get on Facebook later." Back in the day people actually wrote letters to each other, with their actual handwriting. Something is personal about that. I believe a lot of us have lost the personal touch. We all are rushing about and so filled with TV and Computers and Cell phones. I know that I feel like in such a rush at times. And I also have noticed how selfish I am at times. When my mom asks me to do something and inside I am like "I don't want to!'' And all I am doing is playing on a stupid phone. I am so glad that the Lord is opening my eyes and showing me where I am failing. I know by His grace and mercy I can be made new. This week 2 Corinthians 13:4 has been in my heart- "For though he was crucified through weakness, yet he liveth by the power of God. For we also are weak in Him, but we shall live with him by the power of God toward you." In our weakness is when we submit ourself to Him and say "Lord you take over, I am weak, but you are strong." That song "Just a Closer Walk" goes through my head. "I am weak, but thou are strong!" Our God is so amazing. His word is so simple the way he reveals it. It must be by His Spirit. Our Flesh is weak and enmity towards God. But His Spirit is willing and it's Truth!

Some thoughts

So tomorrow we go to school! At ten!! Yaya!! I get to miss Adv. Algebra!! The snow here is nearly all gone! So thankful for that! I want green and the hot sun..but I know that won't be for awhile! Not until the unmerciful Mississipi summer comes! My favorite season beside spring and fall. Winter is not on my list of favorite things. Reminds me of the song on Sound of Music. The song escapes me for the moment but I know it says "my favorite things and then I don't feel so sad" Oh well :)

The Lord gave me this great idea the other night after I wrote Jency ( the child we sponsor through Compassion) I had some pretty paper and I had a heart cutter and photo paper. I decided I would make her some pretty bookmarks. Well then I made me a matching one to remind me to pray for her. Then I began to think about making them and selling them and then give the money to either Compassion or The Voice of the Martyrs Family fund or something like that. I am praying for God to show me which one. I feel a tug towards the one that helps woman and young girls from abusive pasts to get back on track. I forgot what it was called..ugh!! I'll have to look It up tomorrow. My room is unavaliable at the moment. My oldest brother is staying the night since he sold his house so he slept in my bed tonight. He might be buying our house then we would buy my grandma's house down the road. Anyways I kinda got off topic. But the Lord laid a name in my heart for the
bookmarks "Jency's Hearts" I will just have to see how the Lord leads me! He has been so gentle and so sweet this weekend! How He Loves =D

~Tiffany's iPhone~

Our Buckler

Well my wish didn't come true. It snowed and school was cancelled yesterday and today! I was sorta glad to be able to be back in school. Oh well the Lord is in control of the weather..he knows what is best :)

Omw! I am so excited! Tonight I was writing Jency a letter and I was telling her that God was our strength and buckler. I got to thinking what is a buckler? I've read verses in Psalms about God being our buckler but I didn't really know what it meant. So I
decieded to look it up. This is what buckler means: "armor carried on the arm to intercept blows" I was like wow! So later on after I finished the letter I began to think about it and I was like I gotta look up a verse with buckler in it so I can get the full effect. I was flipping through Psalms and I felt to go to Psalm 18. So I'm turning back and my eyes land on this section of chapter 18 and it was just amazing!! I was like WOW!

Psalm 18:29- For by thee I have run through a troop; and by my God have I leaped over a wall. 30) As for God, his way is perfect: the word of the Lord is tried: he is a BUCKLER to all those that TRUST IN HIM. 31) For who is
our God save the Lord? Or who is our rock save our God? 32) It is God that girdeth me with strength, and maketh my way perfect.

It was just what I needed! I had been wanting the troop and leaping over a wall verse and bam there it is. God works in a way you lest expect it!! That's what makes him so awesome! His thoughts are higher than our thoughts and his ways are higher than our ways! I praise Him for that!! In the heat of the battle God is our Buckler taking those blows for us and we are safe under his protection. But we got to put on the whole armor of God! We just can't be lazy but we got to be steadfast and have our heart open to the Lord and to study to show ourselves approved unto God! It also says in 1 Timothy for us to endure hardness as a good soldier in Jesus Christ. No it's not easy way. Paul said is we suffer with him we will reign with him. He also says in Philipians 3:10-" That I may know Him, and the power of his resurrection, and the fellowship of his sufferings, being made conformable unto his death." Somewhere in the Bible it says that Jesus learned obdience
through the things that he suffered. Ok wow, I kinda got off subject in away well maybe not. God is FULLY AWESOME!!!!

~Tiffany's iPhone~

Wow

So the first post of 2010! I can hardly believe it is already 2010. This year I will turn 18 and graduate. In four months to be exact. It's like WOW!! I always felt that it would be forever till I would be eighteen and be a graduate. Now its only four months away, and it's bittersweet.

My dad and little brother is watching football. Its between Cincinnati and Florida Gators. I was suprised to see that Tim Teebo (maybe that's how you spell it) had a scripture on his face makeup. It was Ephesians 2:8-10. You just don't say that every day.

We made it to Canada safely. We had to turn our cell phones off it costs money to have them on. But I still have my laptop and there is wireless internet at the motel we are staying at. Daddy preached a good word tonight at the church. It was about setting our affections on things above. I also learned a new Ojibwa word. "Shook-may-gay-wen" It means promise. The people up here are so sweet. The pastor Sis. Sarah Waboose is in her sixties and she has such a servant's heart. She prepares some really good meals too. God has really been working on my heart about sacrifice. I am slowly beginning to understand about being a servant. It's just amazing and humbling. I know it's only by the grace of God.

"He is jealous for me. Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy! And all of the sudden I am unaware of these afflictions eclisped by glory, and I realize just how beautiful you are, and how great your affections are for me!"
(Oh How He Loves Us; David Crowder)

To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, that he might be glorified.
(Isaiah 61:3)

A Guy to Complete Me?

So I got a new book called Sacred Singleness by Leslie Ludy. I love books about being single and waiting for the one. Well this one has really stirred me up! It's focused on during the time of singleness and getting in a deeper walk with God and falling in love with Him! Now I know how it feels to long for a godly guy to come and sweep me off my feet and carry me away to happily ever after. But you know what I don't need to wait for my "happily ever after" I can have it right now with Jesus! He can become my Prince Charming and the Lover of My Heart. I know that we girls tend to put our life on hold and say "Oh if I had a husband then I can really start living" But you know what there is a Love that will always keep you living if you will just let it! Now I am not saying don't ever get married or that you can't date. But to let God write your love story and let the time of singleness be a chapter (might be a few chapters for some of us lol) We don't need
a guy to complete us! We need the Husband of our souls! He can reach down into the deepest places of our heart that no human being can ever touch!

And to know the LOVE OF CHRIST which passeth knowledge, that ye might be filled with all the FULNESS OF GOD!
(Ephesians 3:18)

For he satisfieth the longing soul and filled the hungry soul with goodness (Psalm 107:9)

Oh Hallelujah to be filled with the most high God!! How amazing is that?? That those lonely nights when you could be out with some guy (boy do I have them) they can be offered up to God to be filled with his Awesome Love!

A good point in the book was that it's good to have a desire to be married! There is nothing wrong with that but don't let the desire have you! But to put your full focus on Jesus! God will bring you someone but while you are waiting to give your heart to the Ultimate Hero! Come on he died to save our very soul! How great is that? Our Prince who came down from heaven to become a servant all for Love sakes. Wow!! This time of singleness can be miserable or it can be used for God's glory and to get to know the Prince of our heart!

And to answer my question "A Guy to Complete Me?"
"And ye are COMPLETE in HIM, which is the head of all principality and power" (Colossians 2:10)

~Tiffany's iPhone~

Partying is Life?

We made it safely to my grandma's house. There is lots and lots of snow. Snow is very scarce were I live, but I guess if I had snow all the time it would be boring. My cousin Jay came over and we had a snowball fight and he built and snow fort. I watched..what else is a southern girl suppose to do when it comes to snow forts. Anyways he made fun of how I talked and tried to teach me to say "pile" Here is how I say it "pyul" He was like it's "pi" "le". It was a losing battle. At least I won one! :)

My cousin Jay is a Unitarian meaning they really don't believe in Jesus. It's really sad because I love my family up here so bad and I wish they would see the truth. Jay asked me tonight what I did for fun. I told him reading, going to the library, and going to church. He kidded around with me saying I didn't have a life. I get this a lot from people. I came to realize that I may not have a life but I have the LIFE in me! It says in Colossians "For ye are dead and your LIFE is hid with Christ in God"

Whenever me and my cousin were discussing "having a life" I said " well at least I am not partying." I know it is not in myself! I know it's only been through Jesus who has kept me! For I am a sinner saved by grace and by his precious blood. Later on tonight I was thinking about my friend Michael at school. He is the partying type and he has kidded me about having no life. I began to think there is no life in drinking and getting high and fulfilling all the lust you can. Where is life in that? There isn't! Jesus said "I am the way, the truth, and the LIFE!" So whenever somebody tells you that you don't have a life tell them that you have THE LIFE in you!!

"I don't need no dope, I don't need no smoke!
I don't need no whiskey, gin, or wine!
No cocaine or any other thing!
Jesus is my Naturual Royal High!!!"
(song we sing at church)

~Tiffany's iPhone~

Portrait of Love

I think I can blog from my phone..so I'm gonna try.

So I was at the library today looking for some books for mom and me to read on our trip. I love to read Christian romance but sometimes it just gets on my nerves the way some are written. I'm like that doesn't happen in reality. I wish there was good wholesome stories out there. I was thinking maybe I should write my own. Not a sappy "can't live without you" kind of book. But a love story where there is purity and high standards. Sometimes we all have this portrait of love in our heads, holding hands and kissing and oh the feelings. But love is just not a feeling it is selfless, giving, patient, kind, and all what says in 1 Corinthians 13. I guess I am just tired of the same old love stories that seem to repeat and repeat. I mean there is nothing wrong with Christian romance it's just there needs to be a book like I mentioned earlier. I don't know maybe it's just me. Oh well just some of my thoughts.

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Lead Me Higher

I thought my last post would be the last. But I was at the Library and I decided to write about last night's revival. It was so wonderful! God was really speaking to my heart. Last week I had this one verse on my heart "Not by might, nor by power, but by my spirit saith the Lord." Last night the preacher while he was preaching said this verse. I was like "Wow!" Then before church I had this other verse it was "Lead me to the Rock that is Higher than I." His preaching was about going up higher in God. But that when we get there, we are going to have to fight more but through Jesus we could get through the difficulties. Bro. Ray (the preacher) was also talking about how we need Spirtual education from God himself. Because that is what is going to keep us in these last days. Last night's word was just so wonderful and was speaking so greatly! I can't wait for what God has in store tonight!

Lead me to the Rock that is higher than I
Lead me there so I can fight
Lead me to the Rock that is higher than I
For I have no might

Love: True Love

So wow..its really DECEMBER!!! Is it already time for Christmas? lol What a random way to start a blog post..oh well. So the other day I bought "I Kissed Dating Goodbye". Omw it is one of the most awesome books about purity and waiting and pursing that intimate oneness with Jesus. I wish I hadn't spent so much time pitying myself over being so single and mulling over it. But I can make a change. Well Jesus will make the change. I just have to surrender myself, my whole self. Not just a thought or minute or hour. But my whole heart, my whole mind, my whole soul, my whole being. In "I Kissed Dating Goodbye" Josh Harris talks about how we have this picture of romance in our heads, kissing and falling into each other's arms. And then God says look at this picture of love and its His son hanging on a cross. God has really been talking to my heart through these books and especially His Word. Jesus was true love. I told the Lord the other day that I was so thankful for His mercy on this stubborn thickheaded girl. Jesus is so WONDERFUL GOOD!! :) I know I haven't reached even close to the middle where I need to be. But Jesus shall guide me. He is patient and kind. Our picture of Love is so degrading and worthless compared to His love. We are so selfish and always wanting "What is in it for Me?" of " I gotta get all I can get!" But you know what instead of being selfish for this flesh and trying to find fullfillment everywhere. We should pursue Jesus!!! He won't reject us! He will return his love back. More love than we could ever imagine. We also have to keep in mind that Love is not just butterfly heady feeling but all what it says in 1 Corinthians 13!

Wow I've written a lot. It was just something flowing out of my heart I had to to get out! :)