Earthly Prince/ Heavenly Prince

Last night I had one of those "Ahhhhh" moments. You know where you know something to be a fact and you believe in it, but it finally it penetrates your thick headed head and it becomes real to you. Well last night I was just reading my Bible and I came across this verse in 2 Thessalonians 3:5- And the Lord direct your hearts into the love of God, and into the patient waiting of Christ. Ok so you know we have this whole concept on waiting and falling in love with our Earthly Prince. Last night it became more personal for me. The patient waiting for Christ..We have the whole loving Jesus and falling in love with him..sure I knew that part...but that last part patient waiting for Christ... I have a Heavenly Prince and he love and adores me. One day he is coming back...I mean I already knew and believed this..but I expierenced it. He opened my eyes to the fact yes I have an Earthly prince for you and your waiting and that is fine....but there is another Prince.

Yes, I can have my Heavenly prince right now..he is always with me...But one day he is coming back. I don't know when, where, and what. But I know he is coming and I must be ready.. Suzette commented on my post yesterday about how maybe the man God has for me isn't ready. That kinda made me think. I need to be the bride that I need to be for Christ.. He is coming in all his glory and we need to be ready. Thank You Lord for Sweet Eye Openers :)

Do You Trust Me?

The couple of past weeks the Lord keeps asking me "Do You Trust Me?" For example on Facebook I'll just be looking at friends and seeing who they are in a relationship with and everything seems to be fantastic and they are in love. Then I look on my life and I begin to be jealous and discontement rises. I have caught myself about to look at someone's profile just to see if they are still dating and the Lord gently asks me "Do You Trust Me?"

We are all human and we long for Love and Satisfaction. I remember reading in Passion & Purity about the way "bread" could not satisfy the heart like "manna" Bread is the dating/earthly love/earlthy pleasures and Manna is that heavenly bread Jesus. (My Definitions) I wish I could remember how Elisabeth Elliot explained it.

I am not saying that it was wrong for me to be checking to see how happy and content people were. But that I was losing focus on what God wanted for me. I would be asking myself "When am I going to fall in love? Where is the One God has for me?" My heart would start to feel impatient and lonely. But God is getting my heart and affections back where they need to be "For He satisfieth the longing heart, and filled the hungry soul with goodness"

Yesterday, I was sitting in my P.E. class thinking about the future and feeling out of control. The Lord brought Jeremiah 17:5-8 to my thoughts. It talks about how the man who doesn't trust the Lord he is like in a desert and the man who trusts in the Lord is like a tree planted in the waters. It really got me to thinking and it encouraged me greatly.

I hope this post makes sense... My thoughts kinda look jumbled together..Oh well :) God Bless Ya'll

My Answer is No

I told Thad ( the one who asked me to prom) No. I felt pressured for an answer and I started to feel uncomfortable especially when he asked me to go to the movies with him last weekend. I had to do a lot of thinking and the Lord brought that verse to mind "Do not be unequally yoked" Even if I had just went to see a movie with him I would be letting down my guard and I would be allowing a foothold for the enemy. I would also be letting down my brothers and sisters on my No Dating, Just Waiting group. I am still super excited about prom even though I'll probaly going alone like most of my best friends. I could ask my cousin Matthew. I went as his prom date last year. It was really fun too. The Lord will be strenght, He is the one who gave me strength to say No. Thank you my dear, Sweet Jesus. :)

What's Wrong with Life?

I don't know if ya'll have heard about Tim Tebow's commercial that supposed to be aired during the SuperBowl. What I heard is that its him and his mother and about Pro-Life. How his mom chose to have him even though the doctor thought otherwise. Well some groups have been making complaints over this. It makes me so mad when we Christians want to stand for what is True and Right and we are not allowed. I know we are going to have persecution. The Bible plainly tells us that. It just makes me so disguisted with how people think. What's wrong with wanting life? Standing for Babies who are alive and humans but no it's not ok according to them!
It's a federal offense to harm eagle eggs. You can go to jail for mistreating your animal. But a human that is pregnant can go and get her baby terminated. I just don't understand people's thinking and how they comprehend that that is ok. I know that its in the Bible that right will be called wrong and wrong be right. It just really bothers me!

Victory in Jesus

There has been this long battle in my mind for about 2 years now. It has been hard. I know it's just the enemy trying to steal what God has given me. Sometimes it would lay off and then
come back with full force. Tonight though it was just a battling me. I know it was the Spirit of God that rose up in me and I started telling that devil to get out of here that I was covered by the Blood of Jesus and that the word of God stands forever! Jesus is carrying me through!! I began to think of how we walk around defeated and being wimpy. I know I have grown weary at times! "God when is this gonna go away, you have got to help me!! I can't do it by myself!!!" But you know what? The power in us is not our own!! It's Jesus that was slain from the foundation of the world! The God of all power and salvation! We are his holy temple!! Sure the devil is walking around seeking whom he may devour. But we as God's children we will resist steadfast in the FAITH!! To be sober and vigilant!! ( 1 Peter 4:8-9) To endure hardness as a good soldier in Christ Jesus (2 Timothy 2:3)

God is our salvation! My heart is so full right now! We can ride above the storm safely in Jesus' arms or we can drown! These verses were kinda going through my head:

28) Hast thou not known? hast thou not heard, that the everlasting GOD, the LORD, the CREATOR of the ends of the earth, fainteth not, neither is weary? There is no searching of his understanding.
29) He giveth POWER to the faint; and to them that have no might, He increaseth STRENGTH.
30) Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall:
31) But they that WAIT upon the Lord shall renew their STRENGTH; they shall mount up with wings as eagles, they shall run and not be weary, and they shall walk and not faint.
(Isaiah 40:28-31)

Eagles fly above the storm! Well wow..I guess I better go to bed.. I just had a heart load and had to write it out..

~Tiffany's iPhone~

Highly Favored

I have problems with self esteem and trying to fit in..and not at school but when I am around church people. I feel left out most of the time. Maybe it's because I am the only young person that's not married and\or has kids. Anyways last night I went to hear a preacher at a different church. I knew alot of the people there, and I guess it was just my flesh and it's jealousies over how other people were being treated. I began to think about how I don't fit in and I guess just having a pity party. Well somebody said the words highly favored. And Jesus began to work on my heart with these two words. Did it really matter if people favored me and what they thought of me and wanted me in their circle. What about being highly favored by God? Him wanting me to come in his presence. I am not saying this in a high and mighty way. It was something the Lord was showing me. To draw closer to Him. Oh and another thing last night. There was this guy there and I
usually think about how "Hmm who is that..is he single?" Old habits die hard and my mind began to wonder. Then I remembered how whenever I left a church service with this mindset, I was always disappointed and sometimes I would cry. So I turned my thoughts to Jesus and asked him to set my eyes on Him. He gave me these words:

I will not leave you disappointed;
Your my Love, your my Bride, my Chosen

Guess what? I didn't leave disappointed...Jesus filled my heart =D

~Tiffany's iPhone~

What Happened Yesterday...

OH MY WORD!!!!!!!!

So I have been seeking the Lord about Mount Zion International School of Ministry. I finally got the greeen light a couple of weeks ago. Ok so there is this one problem that I knew it was going to take God to work it out. All week long I've been telling myself if it is God's will he will open the way. That nothing is impossible with him! He had given me this verse a couple of months back. "I will go before thee, and make the crooked places straight: I will break in pieces the gates of brass, and cut in sunder the bars of iron:" (Isaiah 45:2) I have been keeping that verse in my heart all week. Monday, me and parents discussed about this certain situation. Well yesterday, my daddy saw this certain person and asked him about it. And the answer was yes! Alright, yesterday afternoon, my friend Shanna calls me and asks me if I wanted some of her skirts. She was cleaning out her closet. Of course I said yes!! So she brought them over. Well I was going through them and there was 2 black skirts. Part of the Mt. Zion dress code is that the girls wear black/burgandy skirts pass the knee. Shanna didn't know that though (I didn't tell her either). But I was just like all happy "Where God GUIDES, He PROVIDES!! Ok well then a third thing happened last night before I went to bed. I decided to open Bro. David Wilkerson's newsletter. He is the founder of Mt. Zion. There was a another piece of paper along with his message. It was announcing that Mt. Zion was taking applications. Let me tell you I felt crazy good!!! I am just so excited!!!!!!!! I am going to Lord Willing have the whole application sent in by March!!! I am so excited I just can't hide it!!!! =D

A Beautiful Thought

"What a beautiful thought I am thinking..."

The other day I had this beautiful thought.

I was a queen and I was entering into the courts of My King (Jesus) and everything stopped. Jesus had only eyes for me. He had found favor..I was his Queen.

Then today I got to thinking that is what the church is. We are one body as his Bride. God wants that wife/husband relationship with us! We are his Bride. He loves us and wants to take care of us. He will provide for our every need. He is definetly the ULTIMATE Prince. What more could a girl ask for? He knows my heart and its desires. Wow....its just so beautiful...

Today

Today I traveled with my senior class to the Community College close by. We are getting are tution paid by the supervisors of our county. It's something to that effect. So basically we traveled about 35 miles to hear a 15 minute speech about something we had already heard about. But we did get out of class and we did get to eat the college's food which was 50 times better than ours. It was fun I got to hang out with my best friends and had a lot of good laughs.
(up above-Me and Kristy)
Tonight I am going to go stay with my Bestest Friend Kristy and her husband Jerred. We haven't hung out in awhile so it'll be FUN!! We always have a crazy time!!! It's funny how me and Kristy are so far apart in age (7 years) but we are so much alike. Sometimes we will say the same thing at the same time without anything planned. We call it our brain wave. One night when our young people were out at McDonald's me and Kristy had this brillant idea to get rings with "Brain" and "Wave" on it. Somebody made a remark we should put "No" and "Brain" We are use to their teasing though!! But it's like God has connected us in such a special sister way. We know that one day we are going to do a work for God together. Jerred, her husband, is the most countriest guy you will find and He loves her so much! They knew each other for years and years and graduated high school together but they were just friends. Then in 2008 they met up again and fell in love!! It's so sweet! Last year in September they got married. I was the maid of honour and did a horrible job of it. First, I had Jerred's ring on my thumb and when I went to fix Kristy's veil and it slipped off by the pastor's feet. Then when I reached down to pick it up my shawl was pinned to my dress and one side popped off. So here I was with my bouquet, Kristy's bouquet, Jerred's ring, and trying to keep one side of my shawl from falling. But I survived and nobody noticed!! But it was sad I thought I was losing my best friend forever. But I didn't we are actually closer now and we hang more than what we use to! Anyways I am kinda rambling! Oh another thing is that people have mistaken us for each other multiple times and we aren't even related. Her own father and grandfather mistook me for her!! It's so weird!

But Jesus is my bestest, bestest, bestest friend! He always will be! The other night it was cool. I was thinking about God and this girl had said He was lovely. I began to think of Him and the way he paints the sunset. I actually smiled!!! You know how when you think of that guy when you like him. But the joy wasn't temporary and that smile I really meant it. It's just amazing how God will become our Love if we just open our heart to Him!

Don't Care What Says What

I got the Internet back working on my phone. I just had to reboot it. It was kinda a relief to have it not working..oh well.

Today momma went to her first cat scan since she started Chemo. I don't care what that cat scan said!! I know God healed my momma's body! God comforted me this morning while I was sitting in Adv. Algebra ( I tend to not really pay attention, usually my mind is kinda somewhere else but there at the same time) Anyways. The devil starting warring my mind. I started quoting that scripture "Faith is the Substance of things hoped for, the EVIDENCE of things NOT seen" So I was thinking to myself "Amen!!" Then the next verse kinda hit me in away that I haven't fully realized.."For by it the Elders OBTAINED a GOOD report" I was like "OMW!!!" When I talked to mom this afternoon she had told me about the results. I told her that verse and she told me hers "calleth those things as such they where" ( I think that's how it goes) I don't care what that little machine said...that devil is a liar and GOD is the TRUTH!!

Tonight I got a phone call from a concerned family/church member. She was asking me about how Mom's thing went and I told her we were trusting in God. I didn't want to tell her without permission because people love a good story and they love to add their own things to it. So she was like I am here for you and then the next thing kinda suprised me. She was like "I know you Tiffany, I know you. You are like a hardball, it's ok to cry, you don't need to hold it all in." I was like "God is my comfort" and she said " I know but you don't need to hold it all in" After we hung up I had to laugh..yes laugh. I know she was just trying to help me and be there for me. I can't stand for people to say they know me, when they really don't. During this whole time since September '09 when we found out about Mom's daignosis God has been such a joy and comfort. I have never felt so much peace and joy in my entire life. At the beginning I did break down once. But that day
I gave my total trust to God. I don't need to weep and cry! I need to shout and dance! It's funny that me and mom have to comfort other people who cry about what a thing has happened to her and we are like "Its ok!" But God has just surrounded us with joy unspeakable and we have went on like nothing has ever happened. I guess people ( sad when it's church people too) expect you to sit in the dumps and be worried and tossed about. Anyways I just had to write my heart out a little! It reminds me of that verse in Isaiah 61:3- "the oil of joy for mourning" oh Hallelujah =D
~Tiffany's iPhone~