So here just about 10 minutes ago I was writing in my journal. Well writing my prayers (something I learned from my sweet momma). I was telling God how it was so hard to trust Him in this area. Then I looked on a previous entry and my attitude was hardly any different. It was still with the issue of TRUST.
After that moment I am so sure that it was God who whispered in my heart.
"Change your attitude"
I started thanking God and praying for Him to show me how to come through these tests and temptations. To show me what I needed to do to become victorious! To be a good soldier.
I did not have the attitude of a good soldier. Of a soldier who fully trusted in the General to lead into battle and to conquer. Mine was of somebody who saw no victory. Who did not trust. Who was lazy and drunk on the cares of myself. A soldier who was not fully clothed with the armor of God. (Ephesians 6:11-17)
It is so amazing how God corrects us and to open our eyes to our corrupt way. And to cry out to Him to change us. What we as soldiers go through is not to weaken us. But to make us stronger. We can decide to be weak and never fight and never take instruction. Or to "Be STRONG in the LORD and the POWER of HIS might!" (Ephesians 6:10)
I realize I need to change my attitude! Thank you Lord for showing me where I have fallen and to become a strong soldier in You! Change my attitude so I can be victorious. Lord, and my brothers and sisters who are struggling with the same things as me! Open their eyes and strengthen them. Thank you Jesus. Amen.
"Thou therefore endure hardness, as a good soldier of Jesus Christ. No man that warreth entangleth himself with the affairs of this life; that he may please Him who hath chosen him to be a soldier." 2 Timothy 2:3-4
Blessings and Love,