Thursday, January 28, 2010

What's Wrong with Life?

I don't know if ya'll have heard about Tim Tebow's commercial that supposed to be aired during the SuperBowl. What I heard is that its him and his mother and about Pro-Life. How his mom chose to have him even though the doctor thought otherwise. Well some groups have been making complaints over this. It makes me so mad when we Christians want to stand for what is True and Right and we are not allowed. I know we are going to have persecution. The Bible plainly tells us that. It just makes me so disguisted with how people think. What's wrong with wanting life? Standing for Babies who are alive and humans but no it's not ok according to them!
It's a federal offense to harm eagle eggs. You can go to jail for mistreating your animal. But a human that is pregnant can go and get her baby terminated. I just don't understand people's thinking and how they comprehend that that is ok. I know that its in the Bible that right will be called wrong and wrong be right. It just really bothers me!

Monday, January 25, 2010

Victory in Jesus

There has been this long battle in my mind for about 2 years now. It has been hard. I know it's just the enemy trying to steal what God has given me. Sometimes it would lay off and then
come back with full force. Tonight though it was just a battling me. I know it was the Spirit of God that rose up in me and I started telling that devil to get out of here that I was covered by the Blood of Jesus and that the word of God stands forever! Jesus is carrying me through!! I began to think of how we walk around defeated and being wimpy. I know I have grown weary at times! "God when is this gonna go away, you have got to help me!! I can't do it by myself!!!" But you know what? The power in us is not our own!! It's Jesus that was slain from the foundation of the world! The God of all power and salvation! We are his holy temple!! Sure the devil is walking around seeking whom he may devour. But we as God's children we will resist steadfast in the FAITH!! To be sober and vigilant!! ( 1 Peter 4:8-9) To endure hardness as a good soldier in Christ Jesus (2 Timothy 2:3)

God is our salvation! My heart is so full right now! We can ride above the storm safely in Jesus' arms or we can drown! These verses were kinda going through my head:

28) Hast thou not known? hast thou not heard, that the everlasting GOD, the LORD, the CREATOR of the ends of the earth, fainteth not, neither is weary? There is no searching of his understanding.
29) He giveth POWER to the faint; and to them that have no might, He increaseth STRENGTH.
30) Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall:
31) But they that WAIT upon the Lord shall renew their STRENGTH; they shall mount up with wings as eagles, they shall run and not be weary, and they shall walk and not faint.
(Isaiah 40:28-31)

Eagles fly above the storm! Well wow..I guess I better go to bed.. I just had a heart load and had to write it out..

~Tiffany's iPhone~

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Highly Favored

I have problems with self esteem and trying to fit in..and not at school but when I am around church people. I feel left out most of the time. Maybe it's because I am the only young person that's not married and\or has kids. Anyways last night I went to hear a preacher at a different church. I knew alot of the people there, and I guess it was just my flesh and it's jealousies over how other people were being treated. I began to think about how I don't fit in and I guess just having a pity party. Well somebody said the words highly favored. And Jesus began to work on my heart with these two words. Did it really matter if people favored me and what they thought of me and wanted me in their circle. What about being highly favored by God? Him wanting me to come in his presence. I am not saying this in a high and mighty way. It was something the Lord was showing me. To draw closer to Him. Oh and another thing last night. There was this guy there and I
usually think about how "Hmm who is he single?" Old habits die hard and my mind began to wonder. Then I remembered how whenever I left a church service with this mindset, I was always disappointed and sometimes I would cry. So I turned my thoughts to Jesus and asked him to set my eyes on Him. He gave me these words:

I will not leave you disappointed;
Your my Love, your my Bride, my Chosen

Guess what? I didn't leave disappointed...Jesus filled my heart =D

~Tiffany's iPhone~

Thursday, January 21, 2010

What Happened Yesterday...

OH MY WORD!!!!!!!!

So I have been seeking the Lord about Mount Zion International School of Ministry. I finally got the greeen light a couple of weeks ago. Ok so there is this one problem that I knew it was going to take God to work it out. All week long I've been telling myself if it is God's will he will open the way. That nothing is impossible with him! He had given me this verse a couple of months back. "I will go before thee, and make the crooked places straight: I will break in pieces the gates of brass, and cut in sunder the bars of iron:" (Isaiah 45:2) I have been keeping that verse in my heart all week. Monday, me and parents discussed about this certain situation. Well yesterday, my daddy saw this certain person and asked him about it. And the answer was yes! Alright, yesterday afternoon, my friend Shanna calls me and asks me if I wanted some of her skirts. She was cleaning out her closet. Of course I said yes!! So she brought them over. Well I was going through them and there was 2 black skirts. Part of the Mt. Zion dress code is that the girls wear black/burgandy skirts pass the knee. Shanna didn't know that though (I didn't tell her either). But I was just like all happy "Where God GUIDES, He PROVIDES!! Ok well then a third thing happened last night before I went to bed. I decided to open Bro. David Wilkerson's newsletter. He is the founder of Mt. Zion. There was a another piece of paper along with his message. It was announcing that Mt. Zion was taking applications. Let me tell you I felt crazy good!!! I am just so excited!!!!!!!! I am going to Lord Willing have the whole application sent in by March!!! I am so excited I just can't hide it!!!! =D

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

A Beautiful Thought

"What a beautiful thought I am thinking..."

The other day I had this beautiful thought.

I was a queen and I was entering into the courts of My King (Jesus) and everything stopped. Jesus had only eyes for me. He had found favor..I was his Queen.

Then today I got to thinking that is what the church is. We are one body as his Bride. God wants that wife/husband relationship with us! We are his Bride. He loves us and wants to take care of us. He will provide for our every need. He is definetly the ULTIMATE Prince. What more could a girl ask for? He knows my heart and its desires. Wow....its just so beautiful...

Friday, January 15, 2010


Today I traveled with my senior class to the Community College close by. We are getting are tution paid by the supervisors of our county. It's something to that effect. So basically we traveled about 35 miles to hear a 15 minute speech about something we had already heard about. But we did get out of class and we did get to eat the college's food which was 50 times better than ours. It was fun I got to hang out with my best friends and had a lot of good laughs.
(up above-Me and Kristy)
Tonight I am going to go stay with my Bestest Friend Kristy and her husband Jerred. We haven't hung out in awhile so it'll be FUN!! We always have a crazy time!!! It's funny how me and Kristy are so far apart in age (7 years) but we are so much alike. Sometimes we will say the same thing at the same time without anything planned. We call it our brain wave. One night when our young people were out at McDonald's me and Kristy had this brillant idea to get rings with "Brain" and "Wave" on it. Somebody made a remark we should put "No" and "Brain" We are use to their teasing though!! But it's like God has connected us in such a special sister way. We know that one day we are going to do a work for God together. Jerred, her husband, is the most countriest guy you will find and He loves her so much! They knew each other for years and years and graduated high school together but they were just friends. Then in 2008 they met up again and fell in love!! It's so sweet! Last year in September they got married. I was the maid of honour and did a horrible job of it. First, I had Jerred's ring on my thumb and when I went to fix Kristy's veil and it slipped off by the pastor's feet. Then when I reached down to pick it up my shawl was pinned to my dress and one side popped off. So here I was with my bouquet, Kristy's bouquet, Jerred's ring, and trying to keep one side of my shawl from falling. But I survived and nobody noticed!! But it was sad I thought I was losing my best friend forever. But I didn't we are actually closer now and we hang more than what we use to! Anyways I am kinda rambling! Oh another thing is that people have mistaken us for each other multiple times and we aren't even related. Her own father and grandfather mistook me for her!! It's so weird!

But Jesus is my bestest, bestest, bestest friend! He always will be! The other night it was cool. I was thinking about God and this girl had said He was lovely. I began to think of Him and the way he paints the sunset. I actually smiled!!! You know how when you think of that guy when you like him. But the joy wasn't temporary and that smile I really meant it. It's just amazing how God will become our Love if we just open our heart to Him!

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Don't Care What Says What

I got the Internet back working on my phone. I just had to reboot it. It was kinda a relief to have it not working..oh well.

Today momma went to her first cat scan since she started Chemo. I don't care what that cat scan said!! I know God healed my momma's body! God comforted me this morning while I was sitting in Adv. Algebra ( I tend to not really pay attention, usually my mind is kinda somewhere else but there at the same time) Anyways. The devil starting warring my mind. I started quoting that scripture "Faith is the Substance of things hoped for, the EVIDENCE of things NOT seen" So I was thinking to myself "Amen!!" Then the next verse kinda hit me in away that I haven't fully realized.."For by it the Elders OBTAINED a GOOD report" I was like "OMW!!!" When I talked to mom this afternoon she had told me about the results. I told her that verse and she told me hers "calleth those things as such they where" ( I think that's how it goes) I don't care what that little machine said...that devil is a liar and GOD is the TRUTH!!

Tonight I got a phone call from a concerned family/church member. She was asking me about how Mom's thing went and I told her we were trusting in God. I didn't want to tell her without permission because people love a good story and they love to add their own things to it. So she was like I am here for you and then the next thing kinda suprised me. She was like "I know you Tiffany, I know you. You are like a hardball, it's ok to cry, you don't need to hold it all in." I was like "God is my comfort" and she said " I know but you don't need to hold it all in" After we hung up I had to laugh..yes laugh. I know she was just trying to help me and be there for me. I can't stand for people to say they know me, when they really don't. During this whole time since September '09 when we found out about Mom's daignosis God has been such a joy and comfort. I have never felt so much peace and joy in my entire life. At the beginning I did break down once. But that day
I gave my total trust to God. I don't need to weep and cry! I need to shout and dance! It's funny that me and mom have to comfort other people who cry about what a thing has happened to her and we are like "Its ok!" But God has just surrounded us with joy unspeakable and we have went on like nothing has ever happened. I guess people ( sad when it's church people too) expect you to sit in the dumps and be worried and tossed about. Anyways I just had to write my heart out a little! It reminds me of that verse in Isaiah 61:3- "the oil of joy for mourning" oh Hallelujah =D
~Tiffany's iPhone~

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Some More Thoughts

I am sitting here in Web Page Design. I am bored and my phone won't pull up Facebook. Oh well I shall survive. Man I wish it wasn't so complicating as it was back in the day. Today's generation is so into technology (which can be a good thing) but some let it overtake their life. Maybe it's good it's my phone isn't working. I had it out during break and my friends were talking. I had a thought "I shouldn't neglect my friends here, I can get on Facebook later." Back in the day people actually wrote letters to each other, with their actual handwriting. Something is personal about that. I believe a lot of us have lost the personal touch. We all are rushing about and so filled with TV and Computers and Cell phones. I know that I feel like in such a rush at times. And I also have noticed how selfish I am at times. When my mom asks me to do something and inside I am like "I don't want to!'' And all I am doing is playing on a stupid phone. I am so glad that the Lord is opening my eyes and showing me where I am failing. I know by His grace and mercy I can be made new. This week 2 Corinthians 13:4 has been in my heart- "For though he was crucified through weakness, yet he liveth by the power of God. For we also are weak in Him, but we shall live with him by the power of God toward you." In our weakness is when we submit ourself to Him and say "Lord you take over, I am weak, but you are strong." That song "Just a Closer Walk" goes through my head. "I am weak, but thou are strong!" Our God is so amazing. His word is so simple the way he reveals it. It must be by His Spirit. Our Flesh is weak and enmity towards God. But His Spirit is willing and it's Truth!

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Some thoughts

So tomorrow we go to school! At ten!! Yaya!! I get to miss Adv. Algebra!! The snow here is nearly all gone! So thankful for that! I want green and the hot sun..but I know that won't be for awhile! Not until the unmerciful Mississipi summer comes! My favorite season beside spring and fall. Winter is not on my list of favorite things. Reminds me of the song on Sound of Music. The song escapes me for the moment but I know it says "my favorite things and then I don't feel so sad" Oh well :)

The Lord gave me this great idea the other night after I wrote Jency ( the child we sponsor through Compassion) I had some pretty paper and I had a heart cutter and photo paper. I decided I would make her some pretty bookmarks. Well then I made me a matching one to remind me to pray for her. Then I began to think about making them and selling them and then give the money to either Compassion or The Voice of the Martyrs Family fund or something like that. I am praying for God to show me which one. I feel a tug towards the one that helps woman and young girls from abusive pasts to get back on track. I forgot what it was called..ugh!! I'll have to look It up tomorrow. My room is unavaliable at the moment. My oldest brother is staying the night since he sold his house so he slept in my bed tonight. He might be buying our house then we would buy my grandma's house down the road. Anyways I kinda got off topic. But the Lord laid a name in my heart for the
bookmarks "Jency's Hearts" I will just have to see how the Lord leads me! He has been so gentle and so sweet this weekend! How He Loves =D

~Tiffany's iPhone~

Friday, January 8, 2010

Our Buckler

Well my wish didn't come true. It snowed and school was cancelled yesterday and today! I was sorta glad to be able to be back in school. Oh well the Lord is in control of the weather..he knows what is best :)

Omw! I am so excited! Tonight I was writing Jency a letter and I was telling her that God was our strength and buckler. I got to thinking what is a buckler? I've read verses in Psalms about God being our buckler but I didn't really know what it meant. So I
decieded to look it up. This is what buckler means: "armor carried on the arm to intercept blows" I was like wow! So later on after I finished the letter I began to think about it and I was like I gotta look up a verse with buckler in it so I can get the full effect. I was flipping through Psalms and I felt to go to Psalm 18. So I'm turning back and my eyes land on this section of chapter 18 and it was just amazing!! I was like WOW!

Psalm 18:29- For by thee I have run through a troop; and by my God have I leaped over a wall. 30) As for God, his way is perfect: the word of the Lord is tried: he is a BUCKLER to all those that TRUST IN HIM. 31) For who is
our God save the Lord? Or who is our rock save our God? 32) It is God that girdeth me with strength, and maketh my way perfect.

It was just what I needed! I had been wanting the troop and leaping over a wall verse and bam there it is. God works in a way you lest expect it!! That's what makes him so awesome! His thoughts are higher than our thoughts and his ways are higher than our ways! I praise Him for that!! In the heat of the battle God is our Buckler taking those blows for us and we are safe under his protection. But we got to put on the whole armor of God! We just can't be lazy but we got to be steadfast and have our heart open to the Lord and to study to show ourselves approved unto God! It also says in 1 Timothy for us to endure hardness as a good soldier in Jesus Christ. No it's not easy way. Paul said is we suffer with him we will reign with him. He also says in Philipians 3:10-" That I may know Him, and the power of his resurrection, and the fellowship of his sufferings, being made conformable unto his death." Somewhere in the Bible it says that Jesus learned obdience
through the things that he suffered. Ok wow, I kinda got off subject in away well maybe not. God is FULLY AWESOME!!!!

~Tiffany's iPhone~

Friday, January 1, 2010


So the first post of 2010! I can hardly believe it is already 2010. This year I will turn 18 and graduate. In four months to be exact. It's like WOW!! I always felt that it would be forever till I would be eighteen and be a graduate. Now its only four months away, and it's bittersweet.

My dad and little brother is watching football. Its between Cincinnati and Florida Gators. I was suprised to see that Tim Teebo (maybe that's how you spell it) had a scripture on his face makeup. It was Ephesians 2:8-10. You just don't say that every day.

We made it to Canada safely. We had to turn our cell phones off it costs money to have them on. But I still have my laptop and there is wireless internet at the motel we are staying at. Daddy preached a good word tonight at the church. It was about setting our affections on things above. I also learned a new Ojibwa word. "Shook-may-gay-wen" It means promise. The people up here are so sweet. The pastor Sis. Sarah Waboose is in her sixties and she has such a servant's heart. She prepares some really good meals too. God has really been working on my heart about sacrifice. I am slowly beginning to understand about being a servant. It's just amazing and humbling. I know it's only by the grace of God.

"He is jealous for me. Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy! And all of the sudden I am unaware of these afflictions eclisped by glory, and I realize just how beautiful you are, and how great your affections are for me!"
(Oh How He Loves Us; David Crowder)

To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, that he might be glorified.
(Isaiah 61:3)