I have been wanting to write a post for this blog. But I do not want to write a bunch of jumbled up non-sense. So I wait for God to lay something on my heart. Usually the subject deals waiting for that special someone. (Still waiting, but like I read somewhere "The longer the wait, the bigger the blessings")
The other day I was reading "Passion & Purity" by Elisabeth Elliot. She used a passage of scripture I had to look up. Deuteronomy 8:3 "And he humbled thee, and suffered thee to hunger (to wait), and fed thee with manna (his uncondtional love), which thou knewest not, neither did thy fathers know; that he make thee know that man doth not live by bread only, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God." God was teaching the children of Israel to fully rely on him. That he knew they hungered for certain things but he had a plan.. A bigger promise. The Promise Land. In the verse before it says "And thou shalt remember all the way which the Lord thy God led thee these forty years in the wilderness, to humble thee, and to prove thee, to know what is in thine heart, whether thou wouldest obey his commandments or no." I began to think about the times God has during this waiting time has told me not to do something. Out of my own desires and thinking it will be alright.. Just one chance.. Maybe this is it. In the end I am only dissatisfied and hurt. This is my wilderness and God is proving my heart to see if I am going to go through with a humbled heart, seeking his desires, and his will. Not complaining "Lord, I am so lonely. Everybody else has someone.. Why not me? Please please just let this guy be it. I am tired of waiting!!" If I continue with this attitude.. I might be wandering in this wilderness for a very long time. If the children of Israel would have just listened they could have went into the promise land sooner. For it was theirs to possess.
I'll be posting the second part :) Thanks for reading