Update

Hey everybody, it has been a long time since I last posted. I have gotten so busy just working and being lazy! Today I actually thought about starting my online classes, but I don't know! LOL Anyways the Lord has laid it on my heart to change my blog name. I am at a new stage in my life having to make new desicions and well just living life. The other night I was brainstorming some new names when the name "Sacred Purpose" flowed from my brain. I knew it was what the Lord wanted me to rename my blog. It seems when I try to give a try at dating or try to give a guy a chance I end up sticking stronger to my "no dating, just waiting" policy. I have decided I am going to stick to my purpose in my heart. I am going to continue my romance with Jesus, and not worry about getting a boyfriend or husband. I actually had someone tell me I needed to lower my standards about saving my first kiss. Now, I wish I would have said... "Excuse me, they are my lips, and if I decided to do this it's my business." I would rather be single and be content. Than be married just to be married. God satifies every longing soul. I can surley survive ;) I will stick by my standards and if God sees fit He will bring a long a Warrior Poet who will respect that and love that in me :)

Anyways so now that I have got that off my chest... I hope you will enjoy my blog change that will be coming up :)

My Purpose- "that with purpose of heart they would cleave unto the Lord" ~Acts 11:23

Life

So now that I am back home in the greatest state in the USA. It's time to get back to life. *sigh* I am going to share my favorite picture of my vacation. Maybe I have went a little overboard.. But yea :) LOL

I don't think I have posted it yet but I have enrolled in online classes for photography. I am excited and I am hoping to soon finish and be able to start my own little business.

God has been simply amazing this past month and a half. I have bad days where I miss my momma so bad. She was truly my best friend. But I know God had a reason and purpose. That always helps me to take a big breath and to know that I don't see the big picture :)

I hope to be blogging more now and to be able to read all the blogs I have suscribed to..But anyways thank you everybody for the comments and prayers :)

Blessings and Love,

Tiffany

Saving My First Kiss

Heya :) So I am on my way home from
vacation. I had a blast! Made so many memories and even got to meet Elvis!! (an impersonator of course) LOL You would have thought he was the real thing.. Because we went a second time to see him :) LOL But overall it was a blast to go shopping and just having a crazy, good time :)

Speaking of shopping I went into a book store that had really really cheap books. I got "Authentic Beauty" by Leslie Ludy for $5.99 and "Saving My First Kiss" for only $2! I just finished "Saving My First Kiss" Let me tell you I was estatic to find a book titled that! An interesting concept the author talked about ( Lisa Velthouse who at the time the book was a 20yr old who had never been kissed) was think of your life like a huge painting. Up there in a corner is a white space and you keep pointing to the Artist "Hey look at that white space, please paint it" (my words) When all along He is already painting something beautiful in your life... You got to step and look back at the whole picture instead of sticking your nose right on that white space. Another thing I liked about this book is she talks about the big question "How far can I go" She introduces a new question "How much can I save" Wouldn't it be great to one day give your husband/wife your
first kiss or like one of my best friends your first hug. Like I told some people the other night there is nothing wrong with being pure.. God actually celebrates purity.. Not just physical purity but a heart that is pure toward Him. It's actually great if you save your kisses and hugs. Think of it this was would rather have a heart full of past regrets or a heart full of rewards with waiting. Waiting is hard I know but all good things came to them that wait :) So the question is how much can you save?

Blessings and Love,
Tiffany

~Tiffany's iPhone~

My Life Now :)

Wow, a LOT had changed since I last posted something. As you all have read my sweet Momma went to be with Jesus. Some days are better than others.. I miss her terribly and I miss what she's not gonna get to do with me. BUT God has a purpose and plan for all of it. God has been such OMW so so wonderful to me. I am truly way beyond blessed :)

So.. for my big news.. I am not going to Mount Zion. I prayed and agonized over that decision for nearly two weeks. I finally felt led to talk to my Aunt Shirley, who had been like a mother to my mom. I talked to her about how I was so torn. I wanted to stay here but I guess I felt obligated to go to MZ. A peace flooded my heart as I talked about staying. It was God's will for me to stay. So now I am living with my Co-Pastor and his wife. I am going to be helping them in the ministry. I have slowly come to realize why God wants me to stay. There is so much I could and will do right here. Anyways I was just catching up to everyone! Peace out :)

Blessings and Love,
Tiffany

My Sweet Momma

This is a picture of me and mom before she got really sick. We were walking that day when I took this picture. I loved our long walks and we would talk about the future. She is so beautiful. Her going away party was Sunday... It was wonderful... I had been crying at the beginning. Then my cousin Cathy got up and sang "Ain't No Grave Going to Hold My Body Down." Man I got up and started clapping my hands. A peace just washed over me. I knew where my momma was at. She was in the arms of Jesus... and that I will always have a guardian angel. After my pastor preached a beautiful farewell she opened up the floor to anyone who wanted to say anything. I knew it was the strength of God that helped me get up and take the mic. I talked about her for just a few minutes. Her faithfulness to God and how she loved everybody so much. Then I sang her song that she sang nearly every time she got up at church.



"Don't, don't, don't, don't let the devil ride.

Dont, don't, don't, don't let the devil ride.

If you let him ride, he'll wanna drive,

don't let the devil ride."



"Don't, don't, don't, don't let him talk to you.

Don't, don't, don't, don't let him talk to you.

You let him talk to you, he'll make you sad and blue,

don't let him talk to you."



It's a really upbeat song. People probaly thought I was on nerve medicine but I was on Jesus. God was my strength! Another thing people probaly thought me and my church was crazy. See we have been in a youth revival in a tent in the boonies (southern word :) People have been getting saved and filled with the HolyGhost. We didn't stop having church the day she went home with Jesus, nor her wake, neither the day of her going away party. We (even me) went onto church... and people came those nights and got deliverance. You could feel momma's Spirit there with us at the tent. I told some of our young people before we left for church...that was just my momma's body there, but her Spirit was at that tent meeting. I wanted to be where my momma was at. I know people thought I was off my rocker. It's something I can't explain. God has just had me hid in His arms.



I can't tell you how much my church family has meant to me during this time. It's amazing... You find out who your true family is. :):) I love them people to death...



Just pray for me right now and my little brother. He took it hard, he's not even ten, so theres things he doesn't understand. I mean I don't understand why it was God's will for my momma to go on to be with the Lord. But let me tell you something my momma did not quit having faith. The night before she went home, I told her something along the lines, We are going to make it through this, we are going to keep fighting, and I will never forget her words "Of course." Somebody said something on my FaceBook about how her faith ended in sight. I have no doubt she's done met all them Bible people. I can just see her talking to Esther.. "Me and my daughter loved that movie 'One Night With the King', is that how it really happened?" My uncle asked her just last week "Who's your favorite person in the Bible?" and she said "Jesus." Last Wedensday we had nearly lost her and all our family had gathered at the house. My uncle I think went and hugged her and said something about her dying..and she said something along the lines "Ya'll have all came to see me die, I'm not dying." She fought on longer than the hospice nurse thought. Let me tell you something I don't care for them kind of people, well their profession, put it that way... Man, but I love me some Jesus FAITH people :) Wow so I have wrote a lot. Just wanted to say how wonderful my momma is.. To me she isn't dead, but alive in Heaven and in my heart. The Lord brought a scripture to my heart, where the angels were at the tomb, and they said "Why do you search for the living among the dead?" I think that is how it went.....



Welp, this is just a little tribute to my momma :) Who's dancing on the diamonds flung across the sky :)



Blessings and Love,

Tiffany

Heaven is Sweeter

Yesterday my wonderful, sweet, lovely Momma went to Heaven. I know she's up in Heaven shouting a storm down. My momma loves God so much and she was truly a servant of God. Please just pray for my family:)

Blessings and Love,
Tiffany

~Tiffany's iPhone~

Darkest Hour is Just Before Dawn

So I've been meditating on all the life lessons God has been teaching me during this testing time. I was awake this morning as the light creeped up on the edges of the night sky. It was in two words: simply beautiful. God seems to keep on reminding me that the darkest hour is just before dawn. There is this song I am constantly hearing on the radio "Would you dare, would you dare to believe that you still got a reason to sing, the pain that you've been feeling can't compare to the joy that's coming. So hold on....it's just the dark befor the morning." It is such an encouraging song. Everytime I get in the car and I'm listening to K-Love or a another Christian radio station. It always comes on just when I need it. I know God uses to tell me to just keep the Faith. Well I was thinking about this darkest hour. Sometimes it storms at night and when you get up in the morning there is debri everywhere if it really came a powerful storm. The Bible compares a
man that trusts in the Lord as a tree. In the dawn of your night you may see rotten branches and bad fruit that was shaken off in the storm. Imma hopin you can see whata Imma a sayin.... Trials. Tests. Storms. Are all to show a mirror into our hearts and if we allow the Holy Ghost will shine us real good to get that little spot or big spot off our mirror. My Co-Pastor says something along these lines "There is a trial custom made just for you." A tree may bend all the way to the left and all the way to the right. Sooner or later it will stand straight back up if is planted by the Lord. So tree of the Lord be strong and vigilant.

"I the Lord doth keep it; I will water it every moment; lest any hurt it, I will keep it night and day." -Isaiah 27:3

P.S. I LOVE everybody's comments, I may not comment back but I do read them and appreciate your words of encouragement. Some of you are very special to my heart, because you are my sisters in Christ <3

Blessings and Love,
Tiffany

~Tiffany's iPhone~

Trust, Faith, Hope, Possibilities

Hey Ya'll :):) So wow I am actually posting a post on my blog. Twice in one week... I am on a roll :):) Anyways it's a beautiful, hot sunny day here in the great South... And I am inside with a sweater and socks. It's c-cold in my house. So yea :D just a little irony there LOL

So as some of you know my mom has been battling colon cancer and bronchitus. I know she is healed but we are just coming through a valley. It's amazing how trials are. It's like all during this time God has been holding up a mirror to my heart and I see what I really am deep inside. Just like the Bible talks about being purified we have to go through the fire. Before this trial started I thought I really trusted in God and had Faith in Him. Maybe I did to a certain point. But now it's deeper and it's like when fear and doubt starts creeping in I'm like "God I trust you, your gonna have to help me." It's amazing how God works. People around me are talking doubt and not faith. Even people close to my heart. The other day I was sad about what people were telling me. God though impressed upon my heart "It is better to trust in the Lord than to put confidence in man." I love how the Lord reminds you of His words at the tight time. Flesh wants to be in control
and have everything it's way. So when it comes to the point where you can't control the situation, it's scary just to say "God I trust you." Oh but the peace that follows. I am holding on for my momma's healing. God has been giving me verses and a thought hit me the other day. God's word is going to stand forever no matter what. I will trust in His word, I will put my confidence in Him. What is impossible with man, is possible with God. Faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen.

Blessings and Love,
Tiffany

(Only 47 more days till college :):):)

~Tiffany's iPhone~

A Letter From God to Women

Hello, so I've been busy...cleaning is now my life story for the moment LOL. I am preparing to leave soon for college. So excited to go on an extended honeymoon with my Jesus. So after August there won't be any posts for awhile. Unless I can get to a computer with Internet at somebody's house. Because we aren't alowed Internet or phones or TV. I am actually looking forward to the break. It'll probaly clear my head purty good :):) Anyways I was on my "No Dating, Just Waiting" group. This girl posted "A Letter From God to Women." It is so beautifully written and you can tell it is from the heart of God. So here it is:

A Letter From God to Women

"When I created the heavens and the earth. I spoke them into being. When I created man, I formed him and breathed life into his nostrils, but you, WOMAN, I fashioned after I breathed the breath of life into man, because your nostrils are too delicate, I allowed a deep sleep to come over him. So I could patiently and perfectly fashion you.

Man was put to sleep so that he could not interere with creativity. From one bone, I fashioned you. I chose the bone that protects man's life. I chose the rib.

Which protects his heart and lungs that support him, as you are meant to do. Around this one bone, I shaped you... I molded you. I created you perfectly and beautifully.

Your characteristics are as the rib, strong yet delicate and fragile. You provide protection for the most delicate organ in man, his heart. His heart is the center of his being; his lungs hold the breath of life. The rib cage will allow itself to be broken before it will allow damage to the heart. Woman support the man as the rib supports the body.

You were not taken from his feet, to be under him. Nor were you taken from his head, to be above him. You were taken from his side, to stand by him and be held close to his side.

You are my perfect angel... You are my beautiful little girl. You have grown to a splendid woman of excellence, and my eyes when I see the virtues in your heart.

Your eyes...don't change them. Your lips....how lovely when they part in prayer. Your nose, so perfect in form. Your hands so gently to touch. I've caressed your face in your deepest sleep. I've held your heart close to mine. Of all that lives and breathes, you are most like me.

Adam walked in the cool of the day, yet he was lonely. He could not see me or touch me. He could only feel me. So everything I wanted Adam to share and expierence with me. I fashioned you; my holiness, my strength, my purity, my love, my protection and support. You are special because you are an extension of me.

Man represents my image, woman my emotions. Together, you represent the totality of God.

So man....treat woman well. Love her, respect her, for she is fragile."

-Unknown

Note from me: kind of have to take some of what is written with a grain of salt or I should say balance. I believe a man or woman can be total and complete in God without marriage. But this is still beautiful the way it's explained. Anyways :):)

Blessings and Love,
Tiffany

~Tiffany's iPhone~

Butterfly Prayers

Heya everybody! So I've been really lazy about blogging. I've had a lot of blogging ideas. But I have just been busy, busy, busy :):)

The other day though I was reading this blog. I believe the name of it is "Love Unawakened." Well there was this really neat idea. I know how us "waiting" girls can get caught up in thinking about our future earthly prince and pray about him constantly. That he will be kept and that God will bring you and him together soon. What the blog suggested was everytime you see a caterpillar or a butterfly let that be a prayer promt for you and your future husband. Just like the caterpillar goes into it's cocoon and comes out a butterfly, so will it be for us when God finally brings your earthly prince. Well I got to thinking well I don't see many butterflys or caterpillars. But I have discovered they are everywhere just about. They don't have to be real. But I just thought I would pass along that. Because it's really sweet and amazing reminder. :):)

Blessings and Love,
Tiffany
~Tiffany's iPhone~