Favorite Photo of 2010

Favorite Memory of 2010

Hi everyone! I can not believe 2010 is nearly over. Where do I begin about this exciting and terrifying year. Lets see... Beginning of the year I was seeking God about Bible college and my momma quit chemo. I got accepted into Bible college in the Spring. Graduated in May :) Had a summer of tough lessons and had to let go of a very special person of my life. Moved in with my Co-Pastor and his family. Started working full time at the local tire shop. Totaled my car (Yea, I didn't blog about it but lets just say I flipped into a ditch and landed upside down, walked away with soreness, a broke nail, and a few bruises on my leg.. God's amazing faithfulness) But my favorite memory of the whole year... Let's see I have a lot. But the one I am going to share is bittersweet.

About two weeks before my Momma passed she had my daddy buy her a wedding dress from a local boutique. See she wanted to re-marry him on their 25th wedding anniversary (this year was their 21st) The dress was way too small for her but she put it on anyways. Later she had me put on the dress (I could not fit it either) but she told me "You are going to make a beautiful Bride."

Memories do not have to be necessarily full of happiness to be treasured so close to the heart. I have many memories of this year that I fill my heart with sadness and a tinge of joy around the edges. Through all of this year I have learned many important lessons of growing up and taking responsibility. I have been at times "floating on top of the clouds" and at other times "buried in grief. "

I could not have made it if it was not for Jesus. My steady Rock that has held me firmly. Through all my wrongs and dissapointments. To the joyful, amazing moments. I do not want to miss out on the rest of my journey.

I do not know what 2011 will bring. I can firmly say that Jesus does :)

Happy New Year,
Tiffany

1st Christmas & Remembering

This year was my family's first Christmas without my Beautiful. Precious Momma. But as I read in someone's elses blog. She is spending Christmas with Jesus. Her love for the Lord was so passionate. I remember a time even though she must have been in a lot of pain. ( I think she sheltered a lot of times how much she must have hurt) But she got on her knees and prayed. Her courage lives on in my heart. Touching Jesus was all that mattered to her. I remember a couple of days before she passed we nearly lost her. Our double wide filled with all sorts of family, the room was filled with doubt. As I was and a few other people were holding on for a miracle. I remember leaving for church and telling that room of people I had faith and they better get some or something to that effect. It no longer matters to me what I said. The night before she passed away I came in from church ( We were having a Youth Explosion which we did not stop despite the fact of my momma's sickness and even her passing each night we were in service.. I did not want to stop. I knew my mom would want us to have church) I told her that we were going to make it and she said "Of course" Throughout everything she wanted me to talk Faith. Even when hospice came she reassured me they were only going to help, that it did not mean she was going to die. I was angered nearly every time a hospice nurse visited. I remember one day in particular. The hospice nurse was asking all sorts of questions. Even though my momma was laying there on the couch sleeping she asked what funeral home we would be using. Oh. My.Word. I know the lady was just doing her job. But for pete's sake! My momma held on to faith so strongly. She came to the Youth Explosion four days before her passing I believe. Even though she sat in the van (We were outside in a tent) My pastor prayed for her and told her to believe for God's healing and to confess her healing. She did of course even though she was half out of it with medicine. These are bittersweet memories. I cry because I miss her so much and at the same time I am impacted by her love for Jesus. I know she got her healing. Just in a way I did not want. Some days I think of the last few weeks of her life and they play continually in my mind. I try not to think of the day she went home. It was a day of shock and I comforted other people that whole weekend. Her life was definitely celebrated in that weekend. Only God gave me the strength to face it. She was truly my best friend. I wanted to share some photos I took last Christmas of her.

The Treasure Just in Reach

I know it is hard for all of us at times on this path God has chosen.. At times you feel like that you could give up. The world seems to offer you better things.. But you know deep within your heart those things are only temporary. Last week my Co-Pastor read something to me that "stuck in my crawl" so to speak. I will tell it to the best of my memory. (True story) This man was in his early thirties and I can't remember exactly how he ended up in the hospital. But he died.. He saw himself on the table as he went up. He found himself surrounded by all these rooms. An angel came to him and started showing him the rooms. They were filled with diamonds and all sorts of precious jewels. The man asked the angel what all these were for. The angel told him that it was the treasure to be given to God's servants.. but they gave up right before they were to recieve it.

I have to say that it really struck a chord in my heart. Yes, waiting on what step to take in life next is hard. Yes, waiting for God to give me a husband is hard. Yes, living without my precious mother is hard. But I have to remember God has a plan in all this. I will recieve the promises He has promised. I can not give up so easily.. God's treasure is just in reach. I will trust Him. Because even though on my toughest of days.. I am a jewel in His crown. I will trust Him because He is worthy... He hasn't forgotten you dear Lady of God. He loves you and understands when nobody does. He knows the depth of your heart and the thoughts that you think. And yet He still chases you with reckless Love. Oh me, wow.. when I think about it.. It makes my heart want to burst with all sorts of emotions! Oh how He loves us...

Update

Hey everybody, it has been a long time since I last posted. I have gotten so busy just working and being lazy! Today I actually thought about starting my online classes, but I don't know! LOL Anyways the Lord has laid it on my heart to change my blog name. I am at a new stage in my life having to make new desicions and well just living life. The other night I was brainstorming some new names when the name "Sacred Purpose" flowed from my brain. I knew it was what the Lord wanted me to rename my blog. It seems when I try to give a try at dating or try to give a guy a chance I end up sticking stronger to my "no dating, just waiting" policy. I have decided I am going to stick to my purpose in my heart. I am going to continue my romance with Jesus, and not worry about getting a boyfriend or husband. I actually had someone tell me I needed to lower my standards about saving my first kiss. Now, I wish I would have said... "Excuse me, they are my lips, and if I decided to do this it's my business." I would rather be single and be content. Than be married just to be married. God satifies every longing soul. I can surley survive ;) I will stick by my standards and if God sees fit He will bring a long a Warrior Poet who will respect that and love that in me :)

Anyways so now that I have got that off my chest... I hope you will enjoy my blog change that will be coming up :)

My Purpose- "that with purpose of heart they would cleave unto the Lord" ~Acts 11:23

Life

So now that I am back home in the greatest state in the USA. It's time to get back to life. *sigh* I am going to share my favorite picture of my vacation. Maybe I have went a little overboard.. But yea :) LOL

I don't think I have posted it yet but I have enrolled in online classes for photography. I am excited and I am hoping to soon finish and be able to start my own little business.

God has been simply amazing this past month and a half. I have bad days where I miss my momma so bad. She was truly my best friend. But I know God had a reason and purpose. That always helps me to take a big breath and to know that I don't see the big picture :)

I hope to be blogging more now and to be able to read all the blogs I have suscribed to..But anyways thank you everybody for the comments and prayers :)

Blessings and Love,

Tiffany

Saving My First Kiss

Heya :) So I am on my way home from
vacation. I had a blast! Made so many memories and even got to meet Elvis!! (an impersonator of course) LOL You would have thought he was the real thing.. Because we went a second time to see him :) LOL But overall it was a blast to go shopping and just having a crazy, good time :)

Speaking of shopping I went into a book store that had really really cheap books. I got "Authentic Beauty" by Leslie Ludy for $5.99 and "Saving My First Kiss" for only $2! I just finished "Saving My First Kiss" Let me tell you I was estatic to find a book titled that! An interesting concept the author talked about ( Lisa Velthouse who at the time the book was a 20yr old who had never been kissed) was think of your life like a huge painting. Up there in a corner is a white space and you keep pointing to the Artist "Hey look at that white space, please paint it" (my words) When all along He is already painting something beautiful in your life... You got to step and look back at the whole picture instead of sticking your nose right on that white space. Another thing I liked about this book is she talks about the big question "How far can I go" She introduces a new question "How much can I save" Wouldn't it be great to one day give your husband/wife your
first kiss or like one of my best friends your first hug. Like I told some people the other night there is nothing wrong with being pure.. God actually celebrates purity.. Not just physical purity but a heart that is pure toward Him. It's actually great if you save your kisses and hugs. Think of it this was would rather have a heart full of past regrets or a heart full of rewards with waiting. Waiting is hard I know but all good things came to them that wait :) So the question is how much can you save?

Blessings and Love,
Tiffany

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My Life Now :)

Wow, a LOT had changed since I last posted something. As you all have read my sweet Momma went to be with Jesus. Some days are better than others.. I miss her terribly and I miss what she's not gonna get to do with me. BUT God has a purpose and plan for all of it. God has been such OMW so so wonderful to me. I am truly way beyond blessed :)

So.. for my big news.. I am not going to Mount Zion. I prayed and agonized over that decision for nearly two weeks. I finally felt led to talk to my Aunt Shirley, who had been like a mother to my mom. I talked to her about how I was so torn. I wanted to stay here but I guess I felt obligated to go to MZ. A peace flooded my heart as I talked about staying. It was God's will for me to stay. So now I am living with my Co-Pastor and his wife. I am going to be helping them in the ministry. I have slowly come to realize why God wants me to stay. There is so much I could and will do right here. Anyways I was just catching up to everyone! Peace out :)

Blessings and Love,
Tiffany

My Sweet Momma

This is a picture of me and mom before she got really sick. We were walking that day when I took this picture. I loved our long walks and we would talk about the future. She is so beautiful. Her going away party was Sunday... It was wonderful... I had been crying at the beginning. Then my cousin Cathy got up and sang "Ain't No Grave Going to Hold My Body Down." Man I got up and started clapping my hands. A peace just washed over me. I knew where my momma was at. She was in the arms of Jesus... and that I will always have a guardian angel. After my pastor preached a beautiful farewell she opened up the floor to anyone who wanted to say anything. I knew it was the strength of God that helped me get up and take the mic. I talked about her for just a few minutes. Her faithfulness to God and how she loved everybody so much. Then I sang her song that she sang nearly every time she got up at church.



"Don't, don't, don't, don't let the devil ride.

Dont, don't, don't, don't let the devil ride.

If you let him ride, he'll wanna drive,

don't let the devil ride."



"Don't, don't, don't, don't let him talk to you.

Don't, don't, don't, don't let him talk to you.

You let him talk to you, he'll make you sad and blue,

don't let him talk to you."



It's a really upbeat song. People probaly thought I was on nerve medicine but I was on Jesus. God was my strength! Another thing people probaly thought me and my church was crazy. See we have been in a youth revival in a tent in the boonies (southern word :) People have been getting saved and filled with the HolyGhost. We didn't stop having church the day she went home with Jesus, nor her wake, neither the day of her going away party. We (even me) went onto church... and people came those nights and got deliverance. You could feel momma's Spirit there with us at the tent. I told some of our young people before we left for church...that was just my momma's body there, but her Spirit was at that tent meeting. I wanted to be where my momma was at. I know people thought I was off my rocker. It's something I can't explain. God has just had me hid in His arms.



I can't tell you how much my church family has meant to me during this time. It's amazing... You find out who your true family is. :):) I love them people to death...



Just pray for me right now and my little brother. He took it hard, he's not even ten, so theres things he doesn't understand. I mean I don't understand why it was God's will for my momma to go on to be with the Lord. But let me tell you something my momma did not quit having faith. The night before she went home, I told her something along the lines, We are going to make it through this, we are going to keep fighting, and I will never forget her words "Of course." Somebody said something on my FaceBook about how her faith ended in sight. I have no doubt she's done met all them Bible people. I can just see her talking to Esther.. "Me and my daughter loved that movie 'One Night With the King', is that how it really happened?" My uncle asked her just last week "Who's your favorite person in the Bible?" and she said "Jesus." Last Wedensday we had nearly lost her and all our family had gathered at the house. My uncle I think went and hugged her and said something about her dying..and she said something along the lines "Ya'll have all came to see me die, I'm not dying." She fought on longer than the hospice nurse thought. Let me tell you something I don't care for them kind of people, well their profession, put it that way... Man, but I love me some Jesus FAITH people :) Wow so I have wrote a lot. Just wanted to say how wonderful my momma is.. To me she isn't dead, but alive in Heaven and in my heart. The Lord brought a scripture to my heart, where the angels were at the tomb, and they said "Why do you search for the living among the dead?" I think that is how it went.....



Welp, this is just a little tribute to my momma :) Who's dancing on the diamonds flung across the sky :)



Blessings and Love,

Tiffany

Heaven is Sweeter

Yesterday my wonderful, sweet, lovely Momma went to Heaven. I know she's up in Heaven shouting a storm down. My momma loves God so much and she was truly a servant of God. Please just pray for my family:)

Blessings and Love,
Tiffany

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Darkest Hour is Just Before Dawn

So I've been meditating on all the life lessons God has been teaching me during this testing time. I was awake this morning as the light creeped up on the edges of the night sky. It was in two words: simply beautiful. God seems to keep on reminding me that the darkest hour is just before dawn. There is this song I am constantly hearing on the radio "Would you dare, would you dare to believe that you still got a reason to sing, the pain that you've been feeling can't compare to the joy that's coming. So hold on....it's just the dark befor the morning." It is such an encouraging song. Everytime I get in the car and I'm listening to K-Love or a another Christian radio station. It always comes on just when I need it. I know God uses to tell me to just keep the Faith. Well I was thinking about this darkest hour. Sometimes it storms at night and when you get up in the morning there is debri everywhere if it really came a powerful storm. The Bible compares a
man that trusts in the Lord as a tree. In the dawn of your night you may see rotten branches and bad fruit that was shaken off in the storm. Imma hopin you can see whata Imma a sayin.... Trials. Tests. Storms. Are all to show a mirror into our hearts and if we allow the Holy Ghost will shine us real good to get that little spot or big spot off our mirror. My Co-Pastor says something along these lines "There is a trial custom made just for you." A tree may bend all the way to the left and all the way to the right. Sooner or later it will stand straight back up if is planted by the Lord. So tree of the Lord be strong and vigilant.

"I the Lord doth keep it; I will water it every moment; lest any hurt it, I will keep it night and day." -Isaiah 27:3

P.S. I LOVE everybody's comments, I may not comment back but I do read them and appreciate your words of encouragement. Some of you are very special to my heart, because you are my sisters in Christ <3

Blessings and Love,
Tiffany

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Trust, Faith, Hope, Possibilities

Hey Ya'll :):) So wow I am actually posting a post on my blog. Twice in one week... I am on a roll :):) Anyways it's a beautiful, hot sunny day here in the great South... And I am inside with a sweater and socks. It's c-cold in my house. So yea :D just a little irony there LOL

So as some of you know my mom has been battling colon cancer and bronchitus. I know she is healed but we are just coming through a valley. It's amazing how trials are. It's like all during this time God has been holding up a mirror to my heart and I see what I really am deep inside. Just like the Bible talks about being purified we have to go through the fire. Before this trial started I thought I really trusted in God and had Faith in Him. Maybe I did to a certain point. But now it's deeper and it's like when fear and doubt starts creeping in I'm like "God I trust you, your gonna have to help me." It's amazing how God works. People around me are talking doubt and not faith. Even people close to my heart. The other day I was sad about what people were telling me. God though impressed upon my heart "It is better to trust in the Lord than to put confidence in man." I love how the Lord reminds you of His words at the tight time. Flesh wants to be in control
and have everything it's way. So when it comes to the point where you can't control the situation, it's scary just to say "God I trust you." Oh but the peace that follows. I am holding on for my momma's healing. God has been giving me verses and a thought hit me the other day. God's word is going to stand forever no matter what. I will trust in His word, I will put my confidence in Him. What is impossible with man, is possible with God. Faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen.

Blessings and Love,
Tiffany

(Only 47 more days till college :):):)

~Tiffany's iPhone~

A Letter From God to Women

Hello, so I've been busy...cleaning is now my life story for the moment LOL. I am preparing to leave soon for college. So excited to go on an extended honeymoon with my Jesus. So after August there won't be any posts for awhile. Unless I can get to a computer with Internet at somebody's house. Because we aren't alowed Internet or phones or TV. I am actually looking forward to the break. It'll probaly clear my head purty good :):) Anyways I was on my "No Dating, Just Waiting" group. This girl posted "A Letter From God to Women." It is so beautifully written and you can tell it is from the heart of God. So here it is:

A Letter From God to Women

"When I created the heavens and the earth. I spoke them into being. When I created man, I formed him and breathed life into his nostrils, but you, WOMAN, I fashioned after I breathed the breath of life into man, because your nostrils are too delicate, I allowed a deep sleep to come over him. So I could patiently and perfectly fashion you.

Man was put to sleep so that he could not interere with creativity. From one bone, I fashioned you. I chose the bone that protects man's life. I chose the rib.

Which protects his heart and lungs that support him, as you are meant to do. Around this one bone, I shaped you... I molded you. I created you perfectly and beautifully.

Your characteristics are as the rib, strong yet delicate and fragile. You provide protection for the most delicate organ in man, his heart. His heart is the center of his being; his lungs hold the breath of life. The rib cage will allow itself to be broken before it will allow damage to the heart. Woman support the man as the rib supports the body.

You were not taken from his feet, to be under him. Nor were you taken from his head, to be above him. You were taken from his side, to stand by him and be held close to his side.

You are my perfect angel... You are my beautiful little girl. You have grown to a splendid woman of excellence, and my eyes when I see the virtues in your heart.

Your eyes...don't change them. Your lips....how lovely when they part in prayer. Your nose, so perfect in form. Your hands so gently to touch. I've caressed your face in your deepest sleep. I've held your heart close to mine. Of all that lives and breathes, you are most like me.

Adam walked in the cool of the day, yet he was lonely. He could not see me or touch me. He could only feel me. So everything I wanted Adam to share and expierence with me. I fashioned you; my holiness, my strength, my purity, my love, my protection and support. You are special because you are an extension of me.

Man represents my image, woman my emotions. Together, you represent the totality of God.

So man....treat woman well. Love her, respect her, for she is fragile."

-Unknown

Note from me: kind of have to take some of what is written with a grain of salt or I should say balance. I believe a man or woman can be total and complete in God without marriage. But this is still beautiful the way it's explained. Anyways :):)

Blessings and Love,
Tiffany

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Butterfly Prayers

Heya everybody! So I've been really lazy about blogging. I've had a lot of blogging ideas. But I have just been busy, busy, busy :):)

The other day though I was reading this blog. I believe the name of it is "Love Unawakened." Well there was this really neat idea. I know how us "waiting" girls can get caught up in thinking about our future earthly prince and pray about him constantly. That he will be kept and that God will bring you and him together soon. What the blog suggested was everytime you see a caterpillar or a butterfly let that be a prayer promt for you and your future husband. Just like the caterpillar goes into it's cocoon and comes out a butterfly, so will it be for us when God finally brings your earthly prince. Well I got to thinking well I don't see many butterflys or caterpillars. But I have discovered they are everywhere just about. They don't have to be real. But I just thought I would pass along that. Because it's really sweet and amazing reminder. :):)

Blessings and Love,
Tiffany
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How is Your Heart?

I was just wondering. How is your heart? Is it focused on the world and what it can give you in relationships (temporary fun, hurt, and sadness) or are you focused on Jesus and simply waiting at His feet...and falling in love with Him. "Now Tiffany," You may say, "I'm an eligible single person and I'm lonely." Have you ever thought about how Jesus was single and alone. But yet He was not alone.. He had God. I know a lot of us are called to be married. But that's not the greatest calling of our life. The greatest calling of your life is to fall in love with Jesus. Here lately I have needed Him more and more. I have discovered that He is the greatest Prince I could ever have. He is there in my pain and truly knows how to comfort and heal me. I know that there is a great guy God has for me. But I am not in hurry to meet Him. I am not going to be like Martha and be bustling around trying to see what kind of single preacher guy I can get. I am going to wait at Jesus' feet like Mary did. You know what Jesus told Mary that she had chosen the greater part and it would not be taken away from her. I have expierenced lonliness and I still do. Especially when I am around all the married and dating people at my church and when I see all the love going on on Facebook. I have learned to say "Jesus you come fill my lonliness and you have a plan and I trust in You." Now I realize not everybody is going to kiss dating goodbye. But PLEASE take careful time in what you do. Seek God and see what He has for you. I know I thought I would have met the one by now and be planning my wedding. But instead God is leading me to bible college close to 850 miles from my home, friends, and family. I don't understand His ways but they are higher than mine. I'm going to close with these thoughts my friend put on FB.. "Are you putting your relationship on hold for God, or are you putting God on hold for your relationship."

Thankful

So yesterday I was on my way to my aunt's house. We were going swimming. So here I was going down the road and a really good song was playing. Anyways all of the sudden I here this loud crack. I look behind me and an object had hit the backseat window right behind me. It had been shattered by some kind of an object mostly likely a rock because I had just passed a man lawnmowing his yard. If I had been a second earlier it would have went in my window and I could have been in some serious condition. I could have went off the road and had a wreck on top of that. But God's merciful hand.... He is so gracious!!! He is full of compassion :D He is my keeper!! That is my motta when driving... The Lord is my Keeper (Psalm 121) My heart is so thankful!!!

Today's service at church was Awe-Some :D It was all about having the love of Jesus come through our hearts and life! Offering mercy instead of judgement and critiscm. Jesus came to save the lost. But the church has seem to have lost that. But so thankful that Jesus is opening our eyes to the Truth :D Love, Love it

Blessings and Love
Tiffany

~Tiffany's iPhone~

He Says I Love You

Hey all you bloggers =) I need to get back into blogging. But I am so very busy these days doing housework and hanging with friends. I'm aleady missing them and I have only been graduated a week and a day! But I am so excited for what is ahead of me only 87 more days till I have to be at college =) God is leading me and it makes me happy. Omw I got my Simply Modest swimsuit in the mail this week! I cannot wait to go rock Holy in the water!!!!!! So yea summer here I come =)

So to my topic.... On FaceBook there is constant gushy goo love "I love you so much." Between the girlfriends and boyfriends) Anyways I was like you know wishing for that in a way. I was like God can't really send me a FaceBook message. But then I started thinking about how He will paint the sky in my favorite colors.... He says I love you. When He does just the little things like a verse or just a cool wind on a hot day He says I love you. When I feel like giving up He sweetly strengthens me... He says I love you. What a wonderful Prince! I am His Bride and He is my Husband =)

Blessings and Love,
Tiffany

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Wow :D

So it's been nearly a month since I last posted something! A lot has been happening! I have finished school and tomorrow I am graduating :) I can not believe I have made it this far. God has been such a wonderful Father to me and Jesus such a wonderful Prince. Gracious I look back on this past year and I am amazed at God's love and His mercy. So my mom has been having a rough time with her back but Jesus has taught me so much through all of it. He is my teacher and I am learning slowly but surley. I am so thankful for his patience. Oh how I am thankful for all the trials and tribulations it teaches me patience, patience comes expierence, expierence comes hope!!!! Praise the Lord!!

Well God has provided money for me to go to college =D I am so excited!!!! Only 96 more days and I am ready to start the path God has laid out for me :)

Oh and guess what I was able to order a simply modest bathing suit!!!!! I am thrilled and cannot wait to get it :)

Anyways I guess I'm going go just thought I would let everyone know I'm still alive :D

Love and Bunches of Blessings,
Tiffany

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Simply Modest

I am actually blogging from a computer :D at our lovely public library. So the other day I was looking up modest clothing and came across modest swimwear website. Yes...I really really want one! Usually when I go swimming I wear capris and a t-shirt. That just gets annoying. Plus..this summer I am going to the beach with my cousin and her family! So this would be so perfec! I like the little girl's purple print but I think I would like a more neutral color like the green. I'm not a big "bright colored kinda wearing" girl. So here is the website if you want to check it out Simple Modest Swimwear

Loving Revival

Wow.. So where do I begin.. We started revival Monday night. The very presence of God had visited us that Sunday. It fell so great and people were delivered and people were crying. I was playing the piano, and I started crying. The Spirit of God just fell on me so strong. I fell to my knees and just cryed before Him. I remebered how the woman who came and cried at Jesus' feet and wiped them with her hair... Gracious just to think how Jesus was... Man it blows my mind beyond all capacity. Like David said in Psalms 139.." Such knowledge is to high for me I cannot attain unto it." I know that now it is possible to be a Little Jesus. But it blows my fleshly side away. WOOHOOO!! My heart is just full of joy !

So this is the 4th night of Revival. A couple of nights ago my Pastor's daughter got deliverance from her sin! Oh it was so amazing. We know God is going to get rid of our church form and just let Him move!!! Last night the preacher ministrered about how we can't get any anywhere with God covering up our sin and having oughts against our brothers and sisters. The loving convicting Spirit of God came down and we went to the people who we had fought or had something against them. Forgiveness and Love just poured forth. It says if we don't forgive trespasses that our heavenly Father will not forgive us. It was so wonderful!! Now God can move and bring in sinners. Because if we aren't in unity there can't be anything to be done..
More Later :)
Blessings and Love,
Tiffany

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The King

"Little girls dream of marrying royalty, that one day their prince charming will come and sweep them off their feet.. I had this dream and it became a reality, but it's not what you think..."

You know as little girls we all have the dream of being swept away by that handsome Prince into the beautiful setting sun. Or that total cutie Ken Barbie doll in his 4 wheel drive Jeep. Take your pick :D Laugh Out Loud :D

My point is that we do have a King that is just dying (Which he actually did die for you) to make your fairytale dream come true.. No not with an earthly man... But Him :D It says in Psalm 45:11 "So shall the King greatly desire thy beauty: for he is thy Lord; and worship thou Him." Wow he desires me, he desires you....

I think about how relationships between a guy and a girl or I'll see a Facebook status about their "love" about how they can't stop thinking about them... Well I've came to know a King who's thoughts about me are more than the sand (Psalm 139:18) I've came to know a King who knows my downsittig and my uprising. (Psalm 139:2) I've came to know a King who is my shield and my buckler from the them that try to harm me. (Psalm 18:30-35) I've came to know a King who gave His very life because He had so much love for me.

Why would I not want to travel into the sunset on that straight and narrow road... Into my Loving King's arms..

Blessings and Love,
Tiffany

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The Set Apart Young Woman

The set apart young woman not only acknowledges Jesus to be her King, but her heart is fulll of loving devotion to Him as such. Nothing can make her heart leap like the name of that august, that more royal name. She remebers what Jesus did, how He loved her, and gave Himself for her; she looks to the Cross and remebers the streams of blood whereby she was redeemed, even when she was an enemy of God. She remebers Christ in heaven, enthroned at the right hand of the Father, and she loves Him there, and it ravishes her heart to think that God is highly exalted the once- despised and rejected One, and given Him a name that is above every name, that at the name of Jesus every knee shall bow, of things in heaven, and things in earth, and things under the earth. She pants for the time when the Crucified shall come in His glory, and rule the nations as their liege Lord. She loves Jesus so that she feels she belongs to Him altogether, bought with His blood,
redeemed by His power, and comforted by His presence; she delights to know that she is not her own, for she is bought with a price... She loves her King, and loves Him with ardor unquenchable, for many waters cannot drown His love, neither can floods quench it." ~ Charles Spurgeon

(Leslie Ludy changed the masculine pronouns to the feminine in this quote)

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A People With Such "Thirsty" Souls

This is a true story I read in 'Tortured for Christ' by Richard Wurmbrand.

"An Orthodox priest, a friend of mine, telephoned me and told me that a Russian officer had come to him to confess. My friend did not know Russian. However knowing that I speak Russian, he had given him my address. The next day this man came to see me. He longed for God, but he had never seen a Bible. He had no religious education and never attended religious services (churches in Russia then were very scarce). He loved God without the slighest knowledge of Him.

I read to him the Sermon of the Mount and the Parables of Jesus. After hearing them, he danced around the room in rapturous joy proclaiming, "Whg a wonderful beauty! How could I live without knowing this Christ!" It was the first time that I saw someone so joyful in Christ.

Then I made a mistake. I read to him the passion and crucifixation of Christ, without having prepared him for this. He had not expected it and, when he heard how Christ was beaten, how He was crucified and that in the end He died, he fell in an armchair and began to weep bitterly. He had believed in a Savior and now his Savior was dead!

I looked at him and was ashamed. I had called muself a Christian, a pastor, and a teacher of others, but I had never shared the sufferings of Christ as this Russian offficer now shared them. Looking at him, it was like seeing Mary Magdalene weeping at the foot of the cross, faithfully weeping when Jesus was a corspe in the tomb.

Then I read to him the story of resurrection and watched his expression change. He had not known that his Savior arose from the tomb. When he heard this wonderful news, he beat his knees and swore- using very dirty, but very "holy" profanity. This was his crude manner of speech. Again he rejoiced, shouting for joy, "He is alive! He is alive!" He danced around the room once more, overwhelmed with happiness!

I said to him, "Let us pray!" He did not know how to pray. He did not know our "holy" phrases. He fell on his knees together with me and his words of prayer were: "Oh God, what a fine chap you are! If I were You and You were me, I would never have forgiven You of Your sins. But You are really a very nice chap! I love you with all of my heart." "

Wow.. This humbles me and calls me... Oh my word God's people WAKE UP!!!

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Mercy

Today is Friday!! Wooohoo!! Oh and by the way I have decided that Woohoo is the new word of the century for excitement. I have picked it up from my Economics teacher.. And I was walking out of a classroom today and I heard a teacher say "Woohoo" So now that we have that order of business out of the way...

Mercy.. Yep we have been given it and we have heard it, and we have read about it countless times in the Bible. The other day I was listening to a certain worship song and the Lord shed a whole different stage light on it in my understanding. The song verse went something like this "Your Mercy calls me to be like You." Wow... I have always seen mercy as getting all my sins forgiven and my mistakes forgiven by God. But why does He give us mercy.. Not just to save us from that burning firey death... But to become Like Him!!!!! Whenever I make a mistake God shows His Mercy by showing that I did wrong... Not just to get my sin forgiven and go back out and do it again. But to show me I have done wrong and that He is wants to make me like Him. Like those verses that say "Whom the father loveth, He correcteth."

Mercy calls me to be like You, Thank You Jesus....

Blessings and Love,
Tiffany

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Surrender

Prom was last night.. Let's just say it was disappointing I went with my group of friends.. Then it ended up just being me and my best friend who didn't have dates. So we hung out and toasted to getting fat that night. We left before prom was over. It was so noisy!!! All they played was that heavy rap music just about. We had to just about holler to be able to talk to each other. So we left and went to a nearby town and ate at Huddle House :D We had fun all by ourselves :) And the Lord protected us! I love Him so :)

Surrender... Jesus has been tugging on my heart about just surrendering to His will. Just to seek Him and be so lost in working for His kingdom. After reading Sacred Singleness a second time (Excellent book by the way) I just want to do something for Him more!!! There are so many children out there, who have no home and are being sold into slavery. There needs to be hope for these precious children. Why should we single young ladies be sitting around mourning our lonliness and feel like we are going to die if we ain't got a man. I know words are so cheap these days. But my heart burns for these children. They need momma's and daddys and love. We don't have to be married to make a difference in a child's life. Be their mother and God will be their Father.

These past few days God has been gently correcting my sighing heart. What I mean about sighing is that for example today I was unloading the dishwasher and I was thinking about how I didn't have my man yet. Then the Lord brings to my attention to surrender and my heart cries something similar to "Lord I know you have a plan, and I want to be in your will." It's not easy for my flesh to say that. I know that as long as I just get myself lost in God and work for His Kingdom. Nae, my hands are not bound, nor my feet, my heart is free to be captivated by the Saviour, to walk and live in His Spirit. Yes, I still long for the day when God sees that me and my husband are ready for each other. But right now I need (not just want) to go deeper in Jesus. I just thought of something. You know how people ask that question "So has God brought that special someone into your life?" Do the whole happy sigh thing and twist a piece of your hair and say "Yes!!! His name is
Jesus."

Captivated,
Tiffany

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The Next Generation

This past week there has been a stirring and conviction in my heart. I was thinking "I am part of the next generation to bring and have the truth." It's starting to really sink in. Yesterday in the class that I am teacher's assistant for there was a substitute. It also the free period. This girl came into the class to talk to the sub and the girl was talking about her "change" of lifestyle. What they said disgusted me. The sub (a grown lady) tells the girl "You gotta do what makes you happy." They went on to say that they knew it wasn't right and nobody is perfect. When was sin ok if it made you happy? (I believe Jesus can you make perfect if you submit yourself to him and let him change you) The girl was saying "Its neither right nor wrong". I was thinking "If it is neither right nor wrong..than what is it" I was just amazed at this adult telling her "Whatever makes you happy." My heart was just in a mix of thoughts. How black has became white, and
white has become black. I know thst God is judge." There is only one lawgiver who is able to save and destroy who are thou that judgest another." I need humbleness and love, not mine but Jesus Christ, the Saviour of Men.

"Lord let us be a generation that seeks, that seeks your face, Oh God of Jacob" ~We Bow Our Hearts~

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2, 3, 5, 6, or 10

Well I know the majority of my posts are about waiting or what people think of my commitment about not dating. My older brother is always teasing me about guys and how I should be dating. He thinks it's silly that I am waiting for THE one God has for me. Just yesterday we were discussing about Mount Zion and their rule about "No Dating" and I was saying I was waiting for that one God was going to send me. Of course my brother had something smart to say. I can't exactly remember how he started the question but it was something like "What if it means going through 2, 3, 5, 6, or 10" His girlfriend first thought he meant years, but he meant guys. I told him "No it's not going to be like that." "What if it is God's will?" My brother loves to debate about religion, even though he is unsaved. Sometimes you just have to change the conversation and go on and pray for them. Later on I thought of what I should have said. "God's will is not the same for everybody,
this is His will for me." Another time when we got on this subject he was debating about it and saying negative things. I told him something I had read off of another blog similar to these words "Would rather be given an apple that is rotten and half-bitten off, or would you rather have a nice, clean apple." (I am not condemning anyone, God has mercy and forgiveness, no matter what kind of mistakes that have been made. His blood washes and cleans us) I said all this to say this.. It's ok to wait and not date :) You don't have to date 10 guys to find out what you want. God knows the desires of our hearts and when we delight ourself in him his will and desires will become ours. We must sleep like Adam did. He made Eve for Him but he was asleep. We must also sit at the feet of Jesus like Mary. Martha was busied about and was complaining about how Mary was just sitting there. But Jesus told her that Mary had chosen the good part and it would not be taken
away from her. You can take that dating wise too. Be worried about finding the right one and start settling with just average. When you could sit at Jesus' feet and fall in love with Him :) For He satisfieth the Longing heart and filleth the hungry soul with goodness. I know the Lord has a beautiful God scripted love story if we just sit at his feet and wait upon him :D

Blessings & Love,

Tiffany

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Salvation Expected Deliverer

The other night my dad got up to sing at church. He started talking about what the name of Jesus meant. In Hebrew Jesus' name is Yeshua. Which means Salvation. In Matthew 1:21 it says "And she shall bring forth a son, and thou shalt call his name JESUS: for he shall SAVE his people from their sins."

Yesterday I got to thinking I don't even know what Christ means. So I looked it up in the dictionary. It means "any expected deliverer." Wow.. That says a lot just right there. Salvation Expected Deliverer. He came to save us from our sin! Hallelujah!! I know this may sound so elementary and that I should have known what Christ meant. But when you see what's behind his name it's like Wow! When you began to think and study about how Jesus gave his all... His very Life for us... It is simply humblingly and so... Unexplainable. How he would come down from Heaven and become a man...how he stood up for the truth and how he died. The other day I was sitting in my P.E. Class and I was thinking about his death. How he layed his life down...and he told them "no man taketh it from me" How powerful and deep these words are... What a wonderful and beautiful Saviour... Our Salvation Expected Deliverer...

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Well that's Odd...

Well it's Wedensday and I have taken all my 9 weeks exams except for one and that is Web Page. I'm excited that Friday is just around the corner and then it will be SPRING BREAK!!! So excited!!

Last night I was talking to one of my guy friends on Facebook. We use to go to middle school together but after the 9th grade he moved to a different school. So we were just talking about Prom and he was saying he didn't want to take anyone from the school he goes to. I was like "Aren't you going to take your girlfriend?" (His profile pic had been of him and this girl..so I assumed that it was his girl) "No I don't have one" then came the question...."Do you have a boyfriend?" I replied "No I don't, I'm not into dating right now." "Why? You could meet guys." My Reply went something like this "Yea I could, but I don't want to, I am waiting for the one God has for me." He says "How will you know if he is the one." (my guyfriend is not a Christian) so I explained that God would give us wisdom that we would just know and that God gave me a joy that no guy could ever give me. His reply..."Well, that's odd."

I wasn't expecting that kind of reply..LOL But the Bible does say we are a peculiar people.

Sweet Love

Last night at church all I have to say is that it was A.W.E.S.O.M.E. (doesn't stand for anything..just so ESTATIC) Oh.My.Word. the service kinda started out dead in a way. But our hearts were open for Jesus. Well let me tell you He came in like a flood..his sweet presence just swept in there. People were crying and praising God. One of my cousins had came and after church on her facebook status she said she wanted to be saved. I was so Joyous. Man ain't going to get the glory for what God wants to do. That's all it took was our hearts hungry and open for his presence. The preacher got up after that and talked about 15 minutes and said He didn't want to get in God's way and he didn't preached because God had already moved. I am so glad we don't go by a program. This person has got to sing and the preacher has got to sing. But just let Jesus have his way in a service :D Tons of Awesomeness!!!

I have been meditating on Psalm 139. It has became such a reality to me. That he would care to know my uprising and my downsitting. That he knows the words in my mouth before I even speak. He is aquainted with all my ways. What a beautiful truth. That he would have mercy and save me. That he would still love me even though he knows everthing about me. What a LOVE!
No man could ever make me feel like Jesus. Even if I make my bed in hell he is there. If I take the wings of the morning and dewell in the uttermost part of the sea...even there shall his hand lead me and his right hand hold me. He has possessed my reins and covered me in my mother's womb. I am fearfully and wonderfully made.... He saw my substance...and though I was unperfect....the great sum of His thoughts toward me....If I should count them they are more in number than the sand (Every girl wants a guy who continually thinks about them and just adores them..wow Jesus thinks more of us than anything :) I would encourage you girls to check out Psalms 139 and see it as a love poem from God :D God Bless :D

Earthly Prince/ Heavenly Prince

Last night I had one of those "Ahhhhh" moments. You know where you know something to be a fact and you believe in it, but it finally it penetrates your thick headed head and it becomes real to you. Well last night I was just reading my Bible and I came across this verse in 2 Thessalonians 3:5- And the Lord direct your hearts into the love of God, and into the patient waiting of Christ. Ok so you know we have this whole concept on waiting and falling in love with our Earthly Prince. Last night it became more personal for me. The patient waiting for Christ..We have the whole loving Jesus and falling in love with him..sure I knew that part...but that last part patient waiting for Christ... I have a Heavenly Prince and he love and adores me. One day he is coming back...I mean I already knew and believed this..but I expierenced it. He opened my eyes to the fact yes I have an Earthly prince for you and your waiting and that is fine....but there is another Prince.

Yes, I can have my Heavenly prince right now..he is always with me...But one day he is coming back. I don't know when, where, and what. But I know he is coming and I must be ready.. Suzette commented on my post yesterday about how maybe the man God has for me isn't ready. That kinda made me think. I need to be the bride that I need to be for Christ.. He is coming in all his glory and we need to be ready. Thank You Lord for Sweet Eye Openers :)

Do You Trust Me?

The couple of past weeks the Lord keeps asking me "Do You Trust Me?" For example on Facebook I'll just be looking at friends and seeing who they are in a relationship with and everything seems to be fantastic and they are in love. Then I look on my life and I begin to be jealous and discontement rises. I have caught myself about to look at someone's profile just to see if they are still dating and the Lord gently asks me "Do You Trust Me?"

We are all human and we long for Love and Satisfaction. I remember reading in Passion & Purity about the way "bread" could not satisfy the heart like "manna" Bread is the dating/earthly love/earlthy pleasures and Manna is that heavenly bread Jesus. (My Definitions) I wish I could remember how Elisabeth Elliot explained it.

I am not saying that it was wrong for me to be checking to see how happy and content people were. But that I was losing focus on what God wanted for me. I would be asking myself "When am I going to fall in love? Where is the One God has for me?" My heart would start to feel impatient and lonely. But God is getting my heart and affections back where they need to be "For He satisfieth the longing heart, and filled the hungry soul with goodness"

Yesterday, I was sitting in my P.E. class thinking about the future and feeling out of control. The Lord brought Jeremiah 17:5-8 to my thoughts. It talks about how the man who doesn't trust the Lord he is like in a desert and the man who trusts in the Lord is like a tree planted in the waters. It really got me to thinking and it encouraged me greatly.

I hope this post makes sense... My thoughts kinda look jumbled together..Oh well :) God Bless Ya'll

My Answer is No

I told Thad ( the one who asked me to prom) No. I felt pressured for an answer and I started to feel uncomfortable especially when he asked me to go to the movies with him last weekend. I had to do a lot of thinking and the Lord brought that verse to mind "Do not be unequally yoked" Even if I had just went to see a movie with him I would be letting down my guard and I would be allowing a foothold for the enemy. I would also be letting down my brothers and sisters on my No Dating, Just Waiting group. I am still super excited about prom even though I'll probaly going alone like most of my best friends. I could ask my cousin Matthew. I went as his prom date last year. It was really fun too. The Lord will be strenght, He is the one who gave me strength to say No. Thank you my dear, Sweet Jesus. :)

What's Wrong with Life?

I don't know if ya'll have heard about Tim Tebow's commercial that supposed to be aired during the SuperBowl. What I heard is that its him and his mother and about Pro-Life. How his mom chose to have him even though the doctor thought otherwise. Well some groups have been making complaints over this. It makes me so mad when we Christians want to stand for what is True and Right and we are not allowed. I know we are going to have persecution. The Bible plainly tells us that. It just makes me so disguisted with how people think. What's wrong with wanting life? Standing for Babies who are alive and humans but no it's not ok according to them!
It's a federal offense to harm eagle eggs. You can go to jail for mistreating your animal. But a human that is pregnant can go and get her baby terminated. I just don't understand people's thinking and how they comprehend that that is ok. I know that its in the Bible that right will be called wrong and wrong be right. It just really bothers me!

Victory in Jesus

There has been this long battle in my mind for about 2 years now. It has been hard. I know it's just the enemy trying to steal what God has given me. Sometimes it would lay off and then
come back with full force. Tonight though it was just a battling me. I know it was the Spirit of God that rose up in me and I started telling that devil to get out of here that I was covered by the Blood of Jesus and that the word of God stands forever! Jesus is carrying me through!! I began to think of how we walk around defeated and being wimpy. I know I have grown weary at times! "God when is this gonna go away, you have got to help me!! I can't do it by myself!!!" But you know what? The power in us is not our own!! It's Jesus that was slain from the foundation of the world! The God of all power and salvation! We are his holy temple!! Sure the devil is walking around seeking whom he may devour. But we as God's children we will resist steadfast in the FAITH!! To be sober and vigilant!! ( 1 Peter 4:8-9) To endure hardness as a good soldier in Christ Jesus (2 Timothy 2:3)

God is our salvation! My heart is so full right now! We can ride above the storm safely in Jesus' arms or we can drown! These verses were kinda going through my head:

28) Hast thou not known? hast thou not heard, that the everlasting GOD, the LORD, the CREATOR of the ends of the earth, fainteth not, neither is weary? There is no searching of his understanding.
29) He giveth POWER to the faint; and to them that have no might, He increaseth STRENGTH.
30) Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall:
31) But they that WAIT upon the Lord shall renew their STRENGTH; they shall mount up with wings as eagles, they shall run and not be weary, and they shall walk and not faint.
(Isaiah 40:28-31)

Eagles fly above the storm! Well wow..I guess I better go to bed.. I just had a heart load and had to write it out..

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Highly Favored

I have problems with self esteem and trying to fit in..and not at school but when I am around church people. I feel left out most of the time. Maybe it's because I am the only young person that's not married and\or has kids. Anyways last night I went to hear a preacher at a different church. I knew alot of the people there, and I guess it was just my flesh and it's jealousies over how other people were being treated. I began to think about how I don't fit in and I guess just having a pity party. Well somebody said the words highly favored. And Jesus began to work on my heart with these two words. Did it really matter if people favored me and what they thought of me and wanted me in their circle. What about being highly favored by God? Him wanting me to come in his presence. I am not saying this in a high and mighty way. It was something the Lord was showing me. To draw closer to Him. Oh and another thing last night. There was this guy there and I
usually think about how "Hmm who is that..is he single?" Old habits die hard and my mind began to wonder. Then I remembered how whenever I left a church service with this mindset, I was always disappointed and sometimes I would cry. So I turned my thoughts to Jesus and asked him to set my eyes on Him. He gave me these words:

I will not leave you disappointed;
Your my Love, your my Bride, my Chosen

Guess what? I didn't leave disappointed...Jesus filled my heart =D

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What Happened Yesterday...

OH MY WORD!!!!!!!!

So I have been seeking the Lord about Mount Zion International School of Ministry. I finally got the greeen light a couple of weeks ago. Ok so there is this one problem that I knew it was going to take God to work it out. All week long I've been telling myself if it is God's will he will open the way. That nothing is impossible with him! He had given me this verse a couple of months back. "I will go before thee, and make the crooked places straight: I will break in pieces the gates of brass, and cut in sunder the bars of iron:" (Isaiah 45:2) I have been keeping that verse in my heart all week. Monday, me and parents discussed about this certain situation. Well yesterday, my daddy saw this certain person and asked him about it. And the answer was yes! Alright, yesterday afternoon, my friend Shanna calls me and asks me if I wanted some of her skirts. She was cleaning out her closet. Of course I said yes!! So she brought them over. Well I was going through them and there was 2 black skirts. Part of the Mt. Zion dress code is that the girls wear black/burgandy skirts pass the knee. Shanna didn't know that though (I didn't tell her either). But I was just like all happy "Where God GUIDES, He PROVIDES!! Ok well then a third thing happened last night before I went to bed. I decided to open Bro. David Wilkerson's newsletter. He is the founder of Mt. Zion. There was a another piece of paper along with his message. It was announcing that Mt. Zion was taking applications. Let me tell you I felt crazy good!!! I am just so excited!!!!!!!! I am going to Lord Willing have the whole application sent in by March!!! I am so excited I just can't hide it!!!! =D

A Beautiful Thought

"What a beautiful thought I am thinking..."

The other day I had this beautiful thought.

I was a queen and I was entering into the courts of My King (Jesus) and everything stopped. Jesus had only eyes for me. He had found favor..I was his Queen.

Then today I got to thinking that is what the church is. We are one body as his Bride. God wants that wife/husband relationship with us! We are his Bride. He loves us and wants to take care of us. He will provide for our every need. He is definetly the ULTIMATE Prince. What more could a girl ask for? He knows my heart and its desires. Wow....its just so beautiful...

Today

Today I traveled with my senior class to the Community College close by. We are getting are tution paid by the supervisors of our county. It's something to that effect. So basically we traveled about 35 miles to hear a 15 minute speech about something we had already heard about. But we did get out of class and we did get to eat the college's food which was 50 times better than ours. It was fun I got to hang out with my best friends and had a lot of good laughs.
(up above-Me and Kristy)
Tonight I am going to go stay with my Bestest Friend Kristy and her husband Jerred. We haven't hung out in awhile so it'll be FUN!! We always have a crazy time!!! It's funny how me and Kristy are so far apart in age (7 years) but we are so much alike. Sometimes we will say the same thing at the same time without anything planned. We call it our brain wave. One night when our young people were out at McDonald's me and Kristy had this brillant idea to get rings with "Brain" and "Wave" on it. Somebody made a remark we should put "No" and "Brain" We are use to their teasing though!! But it's like God has connected us in such a special sister way. We know that one day we are going to do a work for God together. Jerred, her husband, is the most countriest guy you will find and He loves her so much! They knew each other for years and years and graduated high school together but they were just friends. Then in 2008 they met up again and fell in love!! It's so sweet! Last year in September they got married. I was the maid of honour and did a horrible job of it. First, I had Jerred's ring on my thumb and when I went to fix Kristy's veil and it slipped off by the pastor's feet. Then when I reached down to pick it up my shawl was pinned to my dress and one side popped off. So here I was with my bouquet, Kristy's bouquet, Jerred's ring, and trying to keep one side of my shawl from falling. But I survived and nobody noticed!! But it was sad I thought I was losing my best friend forever. But I didn't we are actually closer now and we hang more than what we use to! Anyways I am kinda rambling! Oh another thing is that people have mistaken us for each other multiple times and we aren't even related. Her own father and grandfather mistook me for her!! It's so weird!

But Jesus is my bestest, bestest, bestest friend! He always will be! The other night it was cool. I was thinking about God and this girl had said He was lovely. I began to think of Him and the way he paints the sunset. I actually smiled!!! You know how when you think of that guy when you like him. But the joy wasn't temporary and that smile I really meant it. It's just amazing how God will become our Love if we just open our heart to Him!

Don't Care What Says What

I got the Internet back working on my phone. I just had to reboot it. It was kinda a relief to have it not working..oh well.

Today momma went to her first cat scan since she started Chemo. I don't care what that cat scan said!! I know God healed my momma's body! God comforted me this morning while I was sitting in Adv. Algebra ( I tend to not really pay attention, usually my mind is kinda somewhere else but there at the same time) Anyways. The devil starting warring my mind. I started quoting that scripture "Faith is the Substance of things hoped for, the EVIDENCE of things NOT seen" So I was thinking to myself "Amen!!" Then the next verse kinda hit me in away that I haven't fully realized.."For by it the Elders OBTAINED a GOOD report" I was like "OMW!!!" When I talked to mom this afternoon she had told me about the results. I told her that verse and she told me hers "calleth those things as such they where" ( I think that's how it goes) I don't care what that little machine said...that devil is a liar and GOD is the TRUTH!!

Tonight I got a phone call from a concerned family/church member. She was asking me about how Mom's thing went and I told her we were trusting in God. I didn't want to tell her without permission because people love a good story and they love to add their own things to it. So she was like I am here for you and then the next thing kinda suprised me. She was like "I know you Tiffany, I know you. You are like a hardball, it's ok to cry, you don't need to hold it all in." I was like "God is my comfort" and she said " I know but you don't need to hold it all in" After we hung up I had to laugh..yes laugh. I know she was just trying to help me and be there for me. I can't stand for people to say they know me, when they really don't. During this whole time since September '09 when we found out about Mom's daignosis God has been such a joy and comfort. I have never felt so much peace and joy in my entire life. At the beginning I did break down once. But that day
I gave my total trust to God. I don't need to weep and cry! I need to shout and dance! It's funny that me and mom have to comfort other people who cry about what a thing has happened to her and we are like "Its ok!" But God has just surrounded us with joy unspeakable and we have went on like nothing has ever happened. I guess people ( sad when it's church people too) expect you to sit in the dumps and be worried and tossed about. Anyways I just had to write my heart out a little! It reminds me of that verse in Isaiah 61:3- "the oil of joy for mourning" oh Hallelujah =D
~Tiffany's iPhone~

Some More Thoughts

I am sitting here in Web Page Design. I am bored and my phone won't pull up Facebook. Oh well I shall survive. Man I wish it wasn't so complicating as it was back in the day. Today's generation is so into technology (which can be a good thing) but some let it overtake their life. Maybe it's good it's my phone isn't working. I had it out during break and my friends were talking. I had a thought "I shouldn't neglect my friends here, I can get on Facebook later." Back in the day people actually wrote letters to each other, with their actual handwriting. Something is personal about that. I believe a lot of us have lost the personal touch. We all are rushing about and so filled with TV and Computers and Cell phones. I know that I feel like in such a rush at times. And I also have noticed how selfish I am at times. When my mom asks me to do something and inside I am like "I don't want to!'' And all I am doing is playing on a stupid phone. I am so glad that the Lord is opening my eyes and showing me where I am failing. I know by His grace and mercy I can be made new. This week 2 Corinthians 13:4 has been in my heart- "For though he was crucified through weakness, yet he liveth by the power of God. For we also are weak in Him, but we shall live with him by the power of God toward you." In our weakness is when we submit ourself to Him and say "Lord you take over, I am weak, but you are strong." That song "Just a Closer Walk" goes through my head. "I am weak, but thou are strong!" Our God is so amazing. His word is so simple the way he reveals it. It must be by His Spirit. Our Flesh is weak and enmity towards God. But His Spirit is willing and it's Truth!

Some thoughts

So tomorrow we go to school! At ten!! Yaya!! I get to miss Adv. Algebra!! The snow here is nearly all gone! So thankful for that! I want green and the hot sun..but I know that won't be for awhile! Not until the unmerciful Mississipi summer comes! My favorite season beside spring and fall. Winter is not on my list of favorite things. Reminds me of the song on Sound of Music. The song escapes me for the moment but I know it says "my favorite things and then I don't feel so sad" Oh well :)

The Lord gave me this great idea the other night after I wrote Jency ( the child we sponsor through Compassion) I had some pretty paper and I had a heart cutter and photo paper. I decided I would make her some pretty bookmarks. Well then I made me a matching one to remind me to pray for her. Then I began to think about making them and selling them and then give the money to either Compassion or The Voice of the Martyrs Family fund or something like that. I am praying for God to show me which one. I feel a tug towards the one that helps woman and young girls from abusive pasts to get back on track. I forgot what it was called..ugh!! I'll have to look It up tomorrow. My room is unavaliable at the moment. My oldest brother is staying the night since he sold his house so he slept in my bed tonight. He might be buying our house then we would buy my grandma's house down the road. Anyways I kinda got off topic. But the Lord laid a name in my heart for the
bookmarks "Jency's Hearts" I will just have to see how the Lord leads me! He has been so gentle and so sweet this weekend! How He Loves =D

~Tiffany's iPhone~

Our Buckler

Well my wish didn't come true. It snowed and school was cancelled yesterday and today! I was sorta glad to be able to be back in school. Oh well the Lord is in control of the weather..he knows what is best :)

Omw! I am so excited! Tonight I was writing Jency a letter and I was telling her that God was our strength and buckler. I got to thinking what is a buckler? I've read verses in Psalms about God being our buckler but I didn't really know what it meant. So I
decieded to look it up. This is what buckler means: "armor carried on the arm to intercept blows" I was like wow! So later on after I finished the letter I began to think about it and I was like I gotta look up a verse with buckler in it so I can get the full effect. I was flipping through Psalms and I felt to go to Psalm 18. So I'm turning back and my eyes land on this section of chapter 18 and it was just amazing!! I was like WOW!

Psalm 18:29- For by thee I have run through a troop; and by my God have I leaped over a wall. 30) As for God, his way is perfect: the word of the Lord is tried: he is a BUCKLER to all those that TRUST IN HIM. 31) For who is
our God save the Lord? Or who is our rock save our God? 32) It is God that girdeth me with strength, and maketh my way perfect.

It was just what I needed! I had been wanting the troop and leaping over a wall verse and bam there it is. God works in a way you lest expect it!! That's what makes him so awesome! His thoughts are higher than our thoughts and his ways are higher than our ways! I praise Him for that!! In the heat of the battle God is our Buckler taking those blows for us and we are safe under his protection. But we got to put on the whole armor of God! We just can't be lazy but we got to be steadfast and have our heart open to the Lord and to study to show ourselves approved unto God! It also says in 1 Timothy for us to endure hardness as a good soldier in Jesus Christ. No it's not easy way. Paul said is we suffer with him we will reign with him. He also says in Philipians 3:10-" That I may know Him, and the power of his resurrection, and the fellowship of his sufferings, being made conformable unto his death." Somewhere in the Bible it says that Jesus learned obdience
through the things that he suffered. Ok wow, I kinda got off subject in away well maybe not. God is FULLY AWESOME!!!!

~Tiffany's iPhone~

Wow

So the first post of 2010! I can hardly believe it is already 2010. This year I will turn 18 and graduate. In four months to be exact. It's like WOW!! I always felt that it would be forever till I would be eighteen and be a graduate. Now its only four months away, and it's bittersweet.

My dad and little brother is watching football. Its between Cincinnati and Florida Gators. I was suprised to see that Tim Teebo (maybe that's how you spell it) had a scripture on his face makeup. It was Ephesians 2:8-10. You just don't say that every day.

We made it to Canada safely. We had to turn our cell phones off it costs money to have them on. But I still have my laptop and there is wireless internet at the motel we are staying at. Daddy preached a good word tonight at the church. It was about setting our affections on things above. I also learned a new Ojibwa word. "Shook-may-gay-wen" It means promise. The people up here are so sweet. The pastor Sis. Sarah Waboose is in her sixties and she has such a servant's heart. She prepares some really good meals too. God has really been working on my heart about sacrifice. I am slowly beginning to understand about being a servant. It's just amazing and humbling. I know it's only by the grace of God.

"He is jealous for me. Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy! And all of the sudden I am unaware of these afflictions eclisped by glory, and I realize just how beautiful you are, and how great your affections are for me!"
(Oh How He Loves Us; David Crowder)

To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, that he might be glorified.
(Isaiah 61:3)